Alvin's life is awesome with Jesus man
Friday, September 25, 2009
gosh. why is this feeling against u coming up agian. is it really jealousy? but whats there to be jealous about. i aint need no one but Him!. got my hommies and cronnies. got Jesus. but y?
i wan to help ppl score. but is this the challenge that was prophesied that i would lose to the ppl i taught. i even could lose to ashely in maths. and physics. gosh. Jesus u gotta help me man. like wth is happening now man. all things may fail. i may not get l1r5 of 12 for prelims. i may not get the acceptance i wan from things. i may not get the looks. i may not get the body i desired. i may not get the bball skills i wan. i may not get my dance right. i may not get to sa. i may not get to do these or that. but just let me dwell in u. let me just keep drawing from u and putting u FIRST! thats all i will ever need. when u are first. i shall not be the last. when u are FIRST! all good things will just run after me! GOD i may be complacent. i may be bastard. but u just point me to u lord. cuz in this times nearing to o levels. i may neglect the ones that are close to me just that i can chiong. u help me help those u place the desires in my heart and u help me chiong super fast. let my prime form be ignited ; u chionging in place of me.
take the i me myself away lord. now its the time for me . now lord. let this bloddy jealousy of things which i dunno what is it, let this urge of wiining just for pride DIE! theres no bloody point to be jealous when u know God is already pouring gifts in u. so what if other ppl may get this or may get that!? God have already place something MUCH GREATER than that man! and win for pride for what?! whats there to win? u win alr then u shiok then suan the person? have u ever thought u might hurt the person more ? like he really thinks u are a nice guy that u would help him although u are so slack. and whats the joy man? how bout putting this intelect that God has given u and use it to SCORE ! for Jesus! bring His name to be lifted higher!
God even though i may not get the things i want. i know u have a better plan. even though i may not __________ or _________ u already done the work. U HAVE A BETTER PLAN! and u will just lead me from glory to glory! just shape me like the person u wan me to be. nvr let me disregard someone cuz im under emotional constrain or jealousy. kill the jealousy, bad emotions and PRIDE! im giving all things to u now lord. u have yr way man! two is better than one. instead of me fighting alone. u fight for me while i relaxs man. even this may sound bastard to some ppl. i dont care man?! cuz my God is just so great and mighty. He is just so awesome that He send His son for us man!!
God this is my prayer man. i give all to u now man. this is my prayer in this battle, where triumph is still on its way. My God is the God who provide:).
+ sry peeps for a long yet may seem saddening post, but its really what i feel now towards myself. u may think like wah alvin alr so _________ yet he still like that. like wt* man. so what? ppl do go through stuff like these man! and the way i go through. is to get my ass out of this stinky shit and go to God. go with the flow man!:) +
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I feel the fire tonight,
I hear, I hear the people cry.
I see the people now,
