Am I still the one i know of?
Monday, March 16, 2009
This is shit . pure shit... i just realise that violence is not the best solution as i injure my left arm... cant believe i used violence to run away from misery. and now.. my left forearm has an internal bruise.. FUCK U LA ALVIN! i am lost. though i planned what to do le... but i just like dunno .... training helps me relief slighty of this misery... but i need HIM man. desperately. i gotta stop running away from Him. WTF ARE U DOING ALVIN? i know that its about me... im sorry... im sorry i've let u down.. i'm sorry i made u let make a place in ur heart for me. i feel damm bad and sorry towards u and u and U! but as for the U , u should galdy know that u should fucking wake up from urself and change . ! WHO AM I TO JUDGE OTEHRS WHILE I FAIL MYSELF!? wake up alvin.. stop running away...
i cant cry anymore.. i dont have any tears left. i'm even going back to my old ways now. and to u peep. if u dun wan help me take. then nvm. i buy myself . i shall burn my money and life away. $6 for 20 red.. sighed.. whats happening to me. !
i have none in terms with u alr. when we talk. i just stayed blank! when i try to start a new topic. i fail. . . if i were to get u back... its like 2 yrs later.. whenever i am like shiok. then i fall. ~a righteous man falls 7 times~ its this part of it? am i to fall 7 times ? its been 5 times alr.. im tired of this... YTF is this happening to me man.. i thought all was well. till now.. my tears have been shed ...
i wanted to go wherever u will go. but when im gone. how do u light the shadows of ur way? how? whenever i look at some parts of u. i feel worried... sigh...
touth say no more bout this emoeth me. y ?
