Alvin~ 16. was born on 20april 1993. Is a believer or Christ and His grace:). loves: ALL TIME LOW! BBALL! DANCE! AND MORE!:) hates: hongsters, ppl who think they are better then others and not respecting them.






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ahh. the adam khoo programme thingy benefacted me alot man. i know how improve english and chinese alr THANKS GARY!:) . damm funny and nice guy man.

tmr got 3 test sia. bloody cockanadan... maths-matrixes . (no kick la dey. relac one corner.). amaths-rate of change+ maxima minima poiint( may be hard but ITS EASY AMEN! did some revision i think.. yea . think im done. dont wanna stress myself so soon man. gonna treat this week as my reimbursion of my march holidays:) ). then still got bio. .. !~T!^%#%$!^#$%^!@$^% - genetics..( bryan ran through chap wit me and im gonna do it later again. but getting lazy sia. i wan play star craft ahah. ok ok no lazy AMEN!).

then aft sch . dunno where the pua bye lukas they all go. jio me go lan then zao. but good sia. cuz i dun wan go lan:) ahah. but i dun like cuz like suddenly zao.. no link sia.. then aft the programme. me go break with bryan. side chair ftw man. then did 3 sets for 3 songs. damm fun:) . "master full chorographer. LIGHT!!!" AMEN! :) ahah. then aft that we study and me go home. ahah. reflected on the day. wanted to cry man. just noticed how much my dad love me man. gary says his dad stuff and like it touched me lo. its like same as my dad except for the caning part cuz my dad dont dare cane me as he thinks it aint good for me . thats 1 way he show his love man. then he like whatever i do he just accept and allow. cuz he knows that im him what. but just that im the better him . cuz i aint fat, i'm much stronger (i think), i'm much smarter. ok ok enough enough. thout shall not judge. ahah. but serious man. he loves me alot man. LET ME ASK U BITCHES! when ur mom and father both dying. u onli can save one WHO WILL U SAVE?! i thought i will save my mom cuz she is better etc etc. but that aint the right reason yo. gary was like. i would let my dad die and save my mom cuz i know that he is proud to have a son like me and he will die a grateful death aft knowing that he took care of me until im grow up and see me grow. so yea. nice right? so ya lo.

really my dad loves me man. thank God :). as for my mom. wait.. actually all things are well . wtf am i doing to think that it aint well? ahah. its good la. everything v nice lo. just wan more freedom and money :) muahahahah. actually both also v good alr. but more better ma. :)

ok then wah STEADY LA EVERYTHING SUPER GOOD !:) . then my mom still give me money for something alr. ahha. dont wanna say here cuz ppl will read and then pissed me off somehow..
really nice lo. tmr will be a good day. aft sch i will go home for a while then go orchard study then go for something at night. then muahahaha.

im gonna dance my way out of things man. it help me relaxs alot. before we dance. bryan was like dont think so much la . just dance. it all will be well. go home think bout it. enjoy urself here man. then im like OK! then set ah damm fun. OMG I ONLI HAVE 20MINS TO STUDY!! cuz i wan watch the 9pm show ahah. ok OK GONNA do the funny chart thingy OKOK!! BYE

i think i'm in love:)


lets start from sunday.

sunday was ok. quite good. (at night best man:) )

woke up 9. left house 11+ went suntec meet drew they all . ate pastamania. dunno y ryan keep wan bk and i keep wan pasta mania. o well. i love it anws. ahahss.... then play hotd 4 with javis. we owned . complete the game and got level 2 top agent.. sighed. my accuracy lousy.. nvm ..

then went service. pastor talk bout the lenin thingy. and the onli thing i caught the most is the roman solider thing..

then later had some talk.. so condemnming can? but nvm the song" because of ur blood, and ur finish work, there is therefore now no condemnation" helps me alot. and what malcom say at the end also v good:" this is not condemnation(ya.. and i feel so ...) but correction(when i thought of it.. yea .. true..) "

then went yy house played mee jong. ramily burger not bad sia.. haha. then went home late.. almost got scolded.. and family got prob.. dunno wtf my father is doing man. keep thinking of himself onli and i dunno wtf my mom thinking also.. so im stuck in the centre. i wan confront my dad. my mom dont let me. then what u wan me do!? pray ah? i pray can la! but nid act also right? i just wanna like hey dad! then he look back . then kena nose bleed man.. i seriously damm pissed off with my parents alr.. dunno what the heck they wanna do.

ok i rant enough. things got better. mom sort her thinking out. dad didnt do anything to affect me or my mom. as long as he do his duty and gives me money can alr. other then that. FUCK OFF!. i aint need u man. all i need is HIM!. dunno y dads are so FUCK UP! . gillians dad same. my dad ... better but still damm noob. gamble gamble gamble... next time when im a dad. i wont let my son be treated as how i am. cock sia tell u..

then slept at 12:) cuz of nice stuff haha. thank you thank you:). then morning wake up went sch. dunno y i dun feel grougy sia. praise God!:) so happy. then go for the talk thingy. thought will v sianz. then actually v funny. i like like no one buisness. and learn if we dont get our goals, we must change our strategy . yea thats good. im applying it for things now. then had another talk too. the person though us alot of studies tips and yea. i maybe found my alr.

then aft the talk. went break for 40mins. did my drills finally!. (not spins..). but nice man. and i was damm pissed off badly. u noe pain then still say. oh oh pain sia. stupid fuck... i believe i can get handstand this week man. stop pissing me off.. left arm is such a let down.. sighed.. oh well. just leave me in this misery and let me find a way out. sermons are not my addiction anymore. now keep listening chinese song sia.. dunno wtf im doing.. son perhaps soon. just hope my mom give me more space and freedom


ytd was stupid...

made a damm wrong choice of going dg.. i should have gone to other place instead.. so sorry for it.. sorry man.

asked javis y he wan go dg. he say he want learn something and for the isreal trip. then im like good point. but we learn nuts ytd. the sharing was ok. dunno y i cant take it seriously man. sorry brandon..

morning sch was ok. had chem test. (full marks AMEN!) then later ss was ok . physics was stupid as mr kool reliefed us.. and he was a tard... then had bio. bio learn how do practical. easy man. the stupid potato experiment. aahhazz.. then later i folo gab and kenneth to chinatown to buy their magic stuff. then we were late in sports day but no punishment. then me and gab went do cip. cip was super slack man. all we had to do was to see who come in 1st, 2nd and 3rd, and we onli do 1 hr then teacher say can go le. and we got like 4hrs cip haha. so we head to our class area and slack.. then quite sianz la. then i feel damm sticky. so i went change to uni and went to find brigette. DAMM MAN! i should have went the other path.. nvm. so i chose to go dg instead.. (tks lukas for wasting time wif me at heartland mall).

then later went chomp chomp eat. then went dg.. at the start was ok cuiz we played. then when dg started im like ehhh.. ok.. all i heard was that they were talking bout law of the spirit (i think) . the romans 8:1 la.. then dunno what they saying.. then later was guys sharing and like we dont take it seriously so anything lo. actually we can share de la. is just that its so boring alr. then we no mood alr. then i know my fault la. cuz like i keep talking etc etc. but its seriously damm boring. hey u wan pissed of me. go ahead man. whats past is past and i feel v bad alr.. just let u know i wont do it again.

aft dg was fun again cuz we played.. then i went home.. ethan was right man. my mood was gone cuz dg was boring and mainly my bad choice..

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today was not bad. morning wake up late then went do facial then the person say i v stress.. wah. ok i'll note that and improve on it. then my mom took me out for lunch and she told me she got a new job . ahah. nice sia. confirm kena promote soon de lo. like work in head office then onli 2 workers there as the admin. ahha. the dunno wad vanilla thing la. some beautician one. not bad la. praise God lo:).and i got urge play dota.. but no man.. gonna focus on studies and training more.. and im damm dumb . i wan more time to His word and i dun even like bother to put in effort. stupid right

but facial was damm painful.. but beneficiary though haha. stress? wow. thats a huge word. i hope pastor will preach on stress tmr ahha. gonna study it now man. seems interesting .. ahah. cuz its the root of my prob now..

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I'm confuse man. i shall not rant here about my thoughts or things now. just going back to the ark. actually come to think of it. i'm alright man. just a little small prob onli. hey best friend. do help me on this man. think u be the onli one(other then Him), who can help me. haha...


shall listen to ethan and not contian my hatered. nor lie anymore.

its true that i hate u . i cant seem to change it cuz things havent settle yet. seriously thinking. it aint my fault man. the onli thing i did was to encourage u and motivate u and i was treated like shit? woah. then u tried to appease me but its of no use my friend(should i still call u as this?) then later on everytime i see u , i'm like ok la things are ok. the next moment. no man. cuz of unsettled things. if u ever read this(i doubt it). settle it with me. i shall use no violence. if need be, to defend myself. when u do something, though i got assurance alr, im still like wth? that one i seriously dunno y... that one my fault. but the other thing u did. was when i encourage u and motivate u . u treat me like shit and attitude me. then im like wtf? then u appeased me and i'm still like wtf? thats all? 1 word settle all the f up mess u made? MY FAULT? suaz la. less one friend like u nvm de la. i cant choose le. u bloody choose this path and what can i do? expect me to lower myself and apologies for nuts i did wrong? bullshit NO!


today... is a v screwed up * up day...

morning woke up . everything ok ok . then reach sch le then later was pe.. but the stupid faizan keep talk talk talk then give prizes so slow.. so we wasted our time and almost eat in our pe timing.. then pe was running. we run to imh but all of us jog. then me vianney, cz and wei qiang say we run back. so we ran back. then reach sch le i swet like just shower like that.. then i forgot bring extra shirt cuz i thought today not running. !@#!^@$%!&^% then damm wet la. dont like..

then later was history. not bad la. learn cold war shit again. then it was english. then the * up teacher go confiscate wei qiang phone. its his bdae somemore. bloddy *** wanted to shout at her sia.. actually lesson v nice de. until she come pick on us.. NOOB! then it was recess. i went to find faizan to ask but cca points. angrove and ben folo me. then he say sec 3 i got 15 points and i was like WTF!? so little ? i expected it to be 18... then later i say this year i got go competition liao. then he say i will get 1 point for competition 1 point for attendance.. !@#!# means i got 17 points. then say tmr sports day will get .5 points again so means i got 17.5 points.. then later he tell me go do 30more hours cip then ill get 2 points. so means i got 19.5 points.. then later he say the .5 points, get from the interhouse games. then i'm like F ... i dont wan. so either i find another alternative or i do 20 more hours of cip. NNM! like no man.. then it was damm jia lat can? cuz go jc. jc will choose those cca a 1 first then a2.. then like i cant rely cca le. i must rely raw score. sajc 8 points... so i must get 6-9 points then can go in.. 10 points to dangerous alr.. so i aim 7 points.. its super sad man..

then i rush to eat my recess. ate bee hoon . super hot can. cuz i put too much chilli padi. hah but nice:) . then later went class. it was maths then me and gab talk alot. then later it was chinese. and gab show us magic trick then i'm like WT?! how u do sia. then he dont wan teach :( damm sad. so i going find brodrick teach me:) and he say ok. so sunday gonna find him. i jsut wanna know whats the thing behind it and how the toot they do it.. then later chinese teacher dunnno run where. and she run go find our form teacher. then form teacher come kp the councillors and kenneth got balls man.! he argue with perrara. bloody bitch man she. ppl no wrong. just sit down there studying. then come kp them.. then later js , arthur and ben and micheal go see dm.. stupid sia. they nvr do anything man.. then it was ss. ss quite ok la. learn the dunno wad detterence shit la. then it was amaths.. teacher go through maxima and minima and i got it alr. then she also teach dy dx of trigo function applying to problem sloving.. chim sia.. but nvm la. then she give 8question hw..

so i went dnt block to break. and i see arthur dance i like jealous sia.. cuz he improve more then me .. but then im damm dumb la. cuz bryan reminded me of my old style and he say its better. then im like PHAU TOOT! i tired it and it feels nice lo. so im gonna cmb them tgt some how.. super dumb me. cricket i know the way alr.. its just that my wrist skin tear abit. so quite sad.. cant train much. handstands, cricket, style . this things confuse me man. needa work on it haha. the onli thing that cheered me up was my float man. cuz i can hold it for solid 10secs now. :) i just needa buy a glove.. but sigh cant bear to part with my money for it..my wrist fails me man...

THEN AH! go home. i wait for 27 for 20mins !!! WTF?! damm long sia.. so super sianzz now. been working too hard nowadays. and tmr! its gonna be damm stupid.. i got chem test on metals and metal extraction. gonna stupid later on. but damm stupid.. tmr going sch. then cant play pool alr.. cuz i have to go sports day for my .5 points and i have to do some cip shit for 4hours.. i seriously dunno if i going dg or not. but like i need to man.. cuz of some reason.. but yet on the other hand i've to go some where else! UH!! lets see what .... says ba.. tonight gonna ask Him man. damm shit man.. aft tmr i still got 26 more hrs to go. stupid... dunno how gonna make it. and gonna ask faizan is there any other ways to get my .5 points..

today not good day cuz of 1 reason. it wasnt filled with Jesus . i no hear sermon nor do i remind myself.. stupid me. now then i know. sighed.. what wrong with me man. actually.. i got a plan alr man. feel so much better now. serious lo. reminding urself of His love and His finish work is so good man. ALRIGHTS! GONNA GO FOR DG TMR!! NO POOL TMR!! GOING DO THE SPORTS DAY SHIT AND GONNA LIVE MY LIFE FOR JESUS!!!


alrightsteeey!

its been so awesome man. aft i off the com i went to train awhile then my arms are dead _l_.. haha i find the sign cute sia!. ok ahaha anws. then i rewarded myself with tv and icecream:) then ate snacks and I STUDY SIA! omg. now i cleared magnetism chapter alr. soon im gonna find mr lee for help on physics, all the electircity chaps cuz i forgot them. ahha. then i did CHINESE TOO! OMG MAN! i learn how to write the ying yong wen and xi han gong han nonsense alr ahah. :)) oyea! sermon says! Jesus Loves can transform u(i think or something like that). wah piang i forgot haha. but its ok man . im v blessed by it somehow. i dont know how to describe in words what i caught. but i know its in me .OYA!!! faithfullness. YEA! u dont need talents, skills, crap , crap ,crap, like if u wan a position or a job or something! be faithful to God House ! OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT ! YEA! . i know His favours just shine on me lo. cuz i really feel v favoured nowadays. like everyday, i know that He loves me and His favour and grace just super abounds, I can focus and excel at great speeds. that what im now lo.

this friday dunno if going dg not.. but i know i'm gonna pool 1st:) hope can play pool with brandon yeo they all sia. they seem pro. but we not that close yet haha. they damm funny. always entertain me in class ahha.
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Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
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nice song k! stuck in my head now. but i dun intend to forget it man. i'm gonna keep it as memories. sometimes i'm just lost man. but all i do is to rely on Him and just let it roll and flow the way He wants it lo:)


last night its so awesome man. ! one thing special happen and another is its even better:)

today! sch was alrights.

morning had perrara period then i do my chem hw and i finish it. then later got chem prac. aiyo. easy sia.. chem and bio spa sure no kick one. bio is the patato thing then chem is sure the qa thing. so both is macham no kick !:) favour lo.:). then later had cheena... had a test. and teacher say i will fail my chinese again. but ben ben helping me now. alot ppl give me advice on chinese alr. and all i ask for is just a pass!:) cuz i aint using chinese for my l1r5 so a pass will do. and i know sure can de la. ! AMEN! ok then had recess. then chem again. teacher go through redox. i quite blur bout it but i got it in the end. gotta just work harder on all subs man. then later was bio! SUPER MIRACLE MAN! PRAISE THE LORD! for the 2nd time. i really listen in bio class and i knew what was going on. now i know chapter 1 and 2 of bio alr. CONFIRM know alr. cuz its so nice. i just need to memorise onli. chil man. 1 step by 1 step.

then sch ended. at 1.35 lol! so i went dnt block to break. and starting everything ok de. is just my wrist keep pain so fast.. alamakey!. nvm . all shall be well. then praveen ask me go lan. i actually dont wan go cuz 1) i dont wan go so far out .. city hall.. 2) i no gamging alr. 3) i got better things to do. so i say if really wan go then go seranggon gardens one. then later lukas wan go city hall so they go lor . then inside of me i'm like YAY!!! dont need go lan. so him praveen and arthur go. lol sia 3 ppl go play what? joke sia. ahah. hey bro, just rmb what i say man. it will help u alot.

so i went home with sugan! ahah. nice guy ah. oh well. i've nothing much to say alr. gonna do my own stuff now! BYE!!

Alvin, Bboy Light, whom Jesus loves, is His beloved son in whom He is well pleased in:)!!!


today was.. i dunno how to describe it man. all i know is im super tired.. haha.

morning sermon energized me up:) then went sch err got small hair check. then kenneth and angrove ran away. so me and lukas just folo on ahha. my hair now seriously freaking short! then when kenneth 1st saw he was like 0.O buzz cut? haha. v funny. but nvm it will be super nice YEA!!!!

anws. had target setting 1st . and i put the marks i wan get for mid year. quite reasonable except for physics cuz i now physics getting blurer and blurer. but it will get better and betterrererer! AMEN! . ok then it all adds up to like11points?! sia la. hope its like 10points of less so i can dsa :)) haah. dunno y but i got good impression of sajc. maybe cuz of the scenery or the location ba. but its ok cuz i'm heading there!!! sajc or ite. !!! ok maybe not haha. NO NO SAJC OR ITE!!! YEA!!! . set la. ahaha. i not scred cuz i know He will make a miracle somehow and i'll head there . OYEA!!

ok then later had maths(did amaths cuz i DUNNO! but i seriously need to improve on maths cuz now i like quite blur alr.. cuz i keep focusing amaths ! O WELL!!). then had history(quite nice la. teacher keep talking bout soccer then got us to understand cold war stuff. wad NATO, Marshall thingy, COMECON, err. then i forget alr :X but i know something bout US and USSR keep angering each other hhaa). then RECESS! i ate the beehoon soup js eat ytd. then i put chilli padi like they did. then its FREAKING HOT!! then i still can go drink the soup and bite onli 1 chili padi. then my mouth burning alR!!! haha. then gab laughing at me . :X

then later had like err english .. 1 hr sia.. then its like raining and its cold and i took cz jacket and i sleep . SHIOK BODOH!! but aft i wake up i like PIANG EH!! can i like go home and sleep. cuz its so nice ahha. then had physics. played omoke with kenneth and had fun lo. but still got listen ABIT! ABIT AH haha. THEN! it was ENGLISH AGAIN! and Perrara forgot there was calss. so we had hevok.! black vs white in omoke and WHITE WON!! SUPER FUN AHAH. and funny too.

then had amaths.. teacher thought finish chap 17. no kick bodoh. but i need practice haha. then went dnt block waited for bryan for 10mins. then we practise tgt. damm fun and cricket v v close le! just need my muscle to no strain 1st can le. he told me that i shouldnt train everyday. he say train 1 day then rest the next etc etc. cuz its not really good. so i'm gonna do it! YEA!!! but need jy lo. cuz like left tricepts getting the funny feeling again.. it will be well AMEN!! oya i hate nokia musics store.. i got alot music free.. but its protected.. wasted like 30mins of my life trying to unproctect it but i fail.. so its likek errr.. ahha.

ok anws i'm gonna chill out now cuz im super tired today ahah. jj lin christian sia! ahah. ok anws bye!


today was a day super filled with Jesus love and favour:)

morning i woke up and i manage to finish whatever i planned to do . WOAH! then later. i went to sch at 7.45 , usual timing. THEN!! i rmb sch start at 8.30 then i'm like SIANZZZEZZEZ!! then nvm ba. i just go and sit down . then listen to sermon! . filled me up man. so i EVEN more confirm that i'm Alvin!, bboy light, whom Jesus loves, IS His beloved son in whom He is well pleased in . AWH YEAH! . ahah.

then later we had our new time table thingy. so today was bio, teacher start revising our sylabus alr cuz he completed it and i can rmb ! OMG RIGHT? YEA! Him man! . then later had like english. i thought it will be damm sianz but me and kenneth talk alot cock and we play game ahha. damm funny. then later it was maths. and i forgot to bring my shits. but WHOOTS! i rmb now so i'm gonna pack it in later. :) then it was RECESS!! decided on food with weeeeii qiang and ate . haha then had chinese.. talk alot and didnt do work . chinese teacher look down on me BUT! theres hope for me to pass . cuz I'M HIGHLY FAVOURED!! i'm gonna do assesments with weeeeiii qiang ! ahah. then this friday gonna buy books and stationerys from popular with kenneth . and we gonna pon sports day ahah. hope ethan pon also so aft which i can go play pool with him then go dg! awesome!

then later maths then physics( learned alot but i missed out chap 19 - dc circuits then i abit blur alr). then i got a half hour free period. actually i wanted to break alone but then nvm la. just tell arthur lo. so we practise tgt. its like im alone still but theres music. oh well!! i hope BRYAN! will break with me soon ahha. then i trained my cricket!!! and i seemed to get the hang of it BOO YA! gonna work harder man. float now is 10sec and still counting. i count till 10 then i scracth my head then i fall.. ahha. FUN SEH! ok then aft that i go AMATHS!! GGED MAN! . its like teacher go through hw THEN! i dunno how to do the 16.3.. the maxima and minuma . i like forgot man. or maybe its i just lazy. cuz today my head like v pain. but its heal man.! haha. then later teacher teach chap 17. the trigo function with dy dx. she thought half the chap alr . and its like NO KICK! but the other half is GGED! so i must work hard haha.

aft amaths . i took mrt to cut hair. then waited half hour for me turn. then half way through my hair cut i heard a voice! it sounded like roy! so i'm like ehhh. haha. he like ran past the salon man.. but its ok. i had my nice hair cut:) bet i'll look like shit tmr cuz i just cut. but hehehe . later when its up . its nice. :) ahha. so today! tonight! my goals---- I DUNNO!! i think i'm gonna like do my hw, pack my bag, etc etc. gonna help fix my dads phone. - i almost blew my top man.. but Thank God nvr . cuz like i just come back then JI BA BOOM!! so many things thrown at me ahah. so i'm gonna finish the phone and yea! AWESOME!! ok bye on the job!


WHOO!O!SKJALKJFAKLJQOIUWOIEWJHFKLA!!!!!

haha . now shaldnt put chicakalagina le. cuz alalalal .

ok . haha v shiok now haha. ok hadnt blog for long.(to me). sat had dare and i served:) so happy man. serving for Jesus and Him onli is WOAH! . then dare was nice. p&w v touching then pastor was talking bout being a david and the law of spirit of life(there is now no condemnation for those who are in christ Jesus. Romans 8:1 Nu txt omits aft Christ Jesus:) hehe). ok then aft dare went lv meeting.. wanted to not go de.. cuz somehow dont like.. but nvm ba just stay. then didnt go study group cuz NO ONE INFORM ME! until 11am on sat then i know.. david send everyone sms nvr send me :( cuz he no my new number hehe:). but nvm la. i also didnt wan study.. but wei hua ask rosa to bring book for me. then i thought the guys would study but they didnt so neither did it. sigh sigh . its okk its ok. so we went kfc eat.. werdna nvr folo and me and javis knew the reason hehe.

then aft kfc, me ryan ethan javis and and and!! errr oya kai z ! yea. we went play pool at meridian. we took the small table and i suck... damm man .. must be table too small. haha. nvm me and ethan going 1 v 1 training next friday before dg. oyea! i now feel like playing pool alot cuz its damm fun. ahha. gonna slice slice slice! . then aft that i went home. and my teeth damm pain!@^$%!^&%@. then tried watching the passion but my eyes v red.. then i went sleep. but couldnt sleep cuz its damm pain... then i lie in bed for 3 hours!! then slept at 1-2 like that..

morning i wake up at 9 then couldnt be bothered to get outta bed so sleep till 11. then was like !Y@%&!^@%@^& my !^&@%&^%! so late alr. then i was like aiya since so late le then i reach tehre late also no diff cuz i thought javis not going.. so i train, cook maggie mee:) , take my time prepare and had a bad hair day.. thats it man i'm gonna cut my hair tmr.! hope i still have my side burn:) ahha. ok anws. aft that when i walking to mrt. JAVIS! call me.. and ask me where i. then i was like !%@$!^%$@^% i thoiught u not going. then damm stupid la.. i would cab down ealier .. but nvm then the dg all wearing formal. no one tell me. sighed:( . then when i reach there. jerome was playing the sweet game at the arcade. he won the jackpot and yea. not bad la. haha. alot of sweets man. i tootache still can eat sweet. know y? cuz i'm healed MAN! AMEN! ahha. then service was super nice can!

p&w v v touching. He remind me of His love for me man. and !!! " Alvin, Bboy Light, whom Jesus loves is His beloved Son whom He is well pleased in :)!!! " yea!!! . then also v v nice lo. then later holy com also super nice. pastor dan son also show me something man like Jesus also can sleep in the boat means like He wans us to rest WITH Him during our journey. thats what i caught la. but sure more meaning so i'm gonna find out (soon). haha. then pastor prince! talk bout the ephod haha. then plus the red +blue = purple thingy. and hebrews 9:24( Jesus is our high priest), 10 :1(law cant make ppl perfect) . these 2 verse v nice lo. haha. then the healing part right! my teeth heal lo and my blah blah blah blah blah blabh blahb ablahbakbalhbal all heal lo!:) ahah. AMEN!

ok . then aft svc went lan cuz this is last time joel can go lan and we just go lo. i got owned by roy.. roy lei. he damm annoying anws. but nvm la. lan just sucked my life away man.. so like no more!.

so i went home. v nice. i listen to one sermon talking bout john de. this morning i also listen. that sermon just restored me man. its super nice. we should not boast bout our love for God but HIS LOVE for us. therefore i derived that I'm Alvin,bboy light, whom Jesus loves is His beloved son in whom He is well pleased in:) hehe. haha. v blessed man. and i know sch will be more fun. gonna get my crickets!! and this morning i found out how i can train at home alr . got 1 more exercise. whoOO!!! ok bye gonna bathe now. bye bye. oya. i'm sorry peeps whom i made sad or etc etc. cuz ytd i was on a emotion break down due to my tootache.. but i'm alright now.(esp to hui hui)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWENDY JIE!:))

so nice lol. sweet sixteen le. 1 more month then my turn:) ahah. i dont think she will read this but anyways happy birthday la. u are my 1 and onli jie:) . i should learn from her. hehe.

ok. things has been so great man. i packed my room, my school notes and my books. now gonna do hw and cds. organise everything le. SO NICE! my desktop so empty:X last time it was like 9 columns.. then now its like 3 columns.. :(( but its for the better. SIGH I WAN PLAY DOTA!! nvm . im gonna like go according to my plans lo.

just now bro damm funny. my mom and him was talking bout jobs and the pay etc etc. then my bro was like u siao ah XXXX u also wanna reject. then next time u no money dont complain ah. then later my mom took the job haha. v funny just now. wah if my mom get the job. then morning i'll be so independant, at night i'll be like so free :) so AMEN SHE WILL GET THE JOB! pay quite decent man. if i can get the pay. MUHAHAHAH i can go isreal and still have cash left. haha.

ok i shall go do my stuff alr. lalalalalalala

yours is the name above all names,
every knee shall bow
every tongue proclaim
yours is the name I live to PRAISE!
JESUS!!
worthy is Your name!
JESUS!!
worthy is your name!!

i hope tmr got this song:) so nice sia. !~!!!~!~~!


lol my keepboard suddenly cant type so it took me quite awhile.. haha.

ok anws. today was super FUN! haha. morning super tired .. then later i went to sch. thought i would be late cuz i 7.40 then reach. then the teacher came at7.45 he ownself late sia.. so we had a 30mins history class. i got bak sbq and i got 8/12. saddded.. nvm next time i will get my 10 or 11 AMEN!. then later we had 2 hours free period! @!%$^@%#$@%$ lesson plan was pure geo( i nvr take) and chem ( lesson was cancel cuz ytd teacher finish what she wanted to teach). then me, shao liang, arthur , js , lukas go macs eat. there weere some other ppl which i forgot.. ok ahha. ps ar. then i eat my hotcakes:) so long nvr eat sia. nex time i wan eat mcgrridles.

then we played tai ti there. then we went to physics class... it was quite nice. i sat beside wei qiang today. oya he went macs too haha. then we talked alot and i listen abit la. i can rmb what onli way to test if object is a magnet is to use a magnet. like charge repel unlike charge attract and some other stuff bout making a strong magnet etc etc. yea. not bad !UH ! .

then javis sms me say go play pool at 6-8.30 then i was like WT* ! so late sia. i thought afternoon.. then i SUAZZ so i go with sch friend go play pool. but i dun mid having 2 seession.. but its too late for me. i got to do some stuff at home too anws.

aft sch i went dnt block break awhile. got my side chair yea. but cant hold long.. !^#@%!&^$%#^&@ nvm haha. SWIPE _l_ T_T. haha then met up with vianney then me cz, wei qiang and arthur took 101 go play pool. nice lol. i like my killing spree but it only got till there haha. played 4-5 games lost once onli I THINK . i like pool now:) so fun. hope we bond tgt again and go bowl or pool ba. then i came home lo. now my com has no dota _l_. so i gonna organize some stuff and BOOOM!! yea then shiok le..wonder y nvr talk much sia.. did i do something wrong? or is it just me? sigh.. its k. i roughly got one sensible reason. but i wont anyhow think cuz i dont wanna kill myself again ahah. hope to talk to u soon:)
lalalala ok bye i going do my own stuff le. haha. im so weird nowadays . WHOO TMR HAVE DARE SIOA!


OMG@!@#@!#!@ ALVIN!! WHAT HAVE U DONE?!

i just deleted alot of shits in my com man.!!! dota is gone, garena is gone, maple is gona, o2jam is still stuck... cant uninstall it.. lol i like some crazy guy sia. now i wanna play dota T_T! _l_ man. nvm la. Jesus better then dota:) . now my com desktop left.

my computer, recyle bin, online warranty, my documents, cyber link stuff, mircosoft office. adobe reader, divX stuff. flasget, samsung and nokia stuff. some media plater, quicktime and itunes, firefox, safari, ie, Avg, o2jam... , #GP converter. tubetilla. torrent, frostwire. msn. and songs / movies file. !!@#$@#@ OMG MAN _l_ !!! delete so much stuff.. like deleted 20gb stuff sia... gonna do more haha. make my com more meaning full .

my teeth also damm pain now.. ITSS HEALED AMEN! . haha. just now went play meejong. won cuz of YY ahha . tmr dg wanna go play pool.. i dunno if my mom allow. but i like wan go.. but i need my fatigue level to be normal again. damm the blue la! nvm its over:) no more blue. i now like v funny sia. got so many goals just nvr work on it.. _l_... heys.. i hope my jc plans dont annoy u or something.. but plans can be changed and changes means for the better. so like yea. dont worry k?:) we can work this out tgt. :)


woah. today was like ehhhh.

morning wake up 9 then i took 10mins to get outta bed.. so i ended up rushing to prepare then my dad send me to sch. was late 10mins ... haha. but didnt get scolding. zun xiong like v ehhh sia. claass ending alr like 10.35 then he came.. dunno y la. but up to him haha. so aft sch i wanted to dance de.. but bryan nvr come today. so i choose to go home lo. i danced at home instead ahha.

i like lose my stamina sia.. but nvm i getting the hang of side and air chair alr. gonna get it AMEN! . ok ba nothing much to say le. i just gonna eat my maggie mee:) then i go play 1 game dota then i go ethan house for meejong le. bye bye.

oya:) tonight dont sad k? haha


today . today. eh ok ok la. haha.

morning wake up 9 am then i like wah dont wan go sch la. then i sleep somemore. then 10 .15 my mom call the house say. boy why havent go sch. then i like i today dont need go . then she say what sub then i say. chinese. then she say u better go . u dont cuz of last night come home late then dont go. then i was like okk ok i go i go. then i rushed to prepare. then took a cab go sch. WAH PIANG EH!!! the uncle SUPER BLUR CAN!? he dunno where is my sch. then i say nvm i guide u. cuz i super pro at my area haha. then reach sch le. then i walked fast to cheena class. and its damm boring.

but its quite good. skills are improving:) had fun being and introvert. ahha. then listen in classs lo. nice lo. like the teacher talk then i can understand. like become introvert can understand more sia. not bad :) ahah. then me and arthur go macs eat. then he come my house.. played dota . then had fun haha. first few games kena own like siao. then i use my tiny:) ahha. super cute haha. when i playing me and arthur laughing cuz i like playing basketball like that. ahha. then played techies. quite fun la. but nvm la. i wanna quit games soon.

anws. tmr i going ethan house play majong ahha. i havent tell my mom yet. but AMEN i can go. tmr i dont wan go cheena.. i go chem then i quickly zao alr. i nowadays like power house sia. i sleep v little but super energetic. haha.

like i say to u:) i will quit le . ok i go practise chairS le bye bye


Wah . thats just 1 word
WAHHHH!!!!!

aft i came home. i went to find bobbie to take blue. aft that he gave me 1 . then we went eat 1 more. then later they say that drew there so is it ok for me . then i was like . arbo. is him not me. then later just follo lo. then we go play pool at meridian. haha. eh bro. super obvious i ok with u can? u think too much la. bobbie also tell u y le. somemore still say i guai lan. my guai lan worse de lor. ok nvm.

pool was fun lol. i didnt noe i improved so much. onli lost like 1 game. but a good defeat ba. I WAN PLAY POOOL!!! SO NICE !! ahha.then i took 1more blue from bobie ok anws. then we all went to eat ljs. shiok . ahha. then v full. then later i went take bus suntec to find amos. we did some stuff. then i left one blue and green. piang eh. then i not feeling well le. super seh can. then i actually wanted to go home de lo. then i just pia abit. i go shit then later anna pray for me. maybe she know what happen ahah. but nvm la. but felt v loved lo. wanted to like cry.

aft that p&w!! SUPER AWESOME !! its so touching. and i teared . its nice. then the sermon. power house man. pastor talking serving for Him. and REST. rest is redemption from our sin, then we are sustained and empowered by HIM then we will become testimony and in the end point up to HIM! . then he also talk bout the HEART! heart is spelt with H E A R T then got one EAR and one HEAR then still got the T which is the cross. then we must hear bout His finish work then we power house! . then he also talk bout Jesus FINISHED work. FINISHED spelt like F I N I S H E D . then got one SHED! HIS blood was SHED for us thats y its FINISHED at the cross. OUR SINS ARE FORGIVEN! there is no condemnation CUZ OF HIS BLOOD! then now i'm gonna guard my hearing. but dunno y i like this kingdom hearts song- simple and clean plantim remix. haha.

super awesome. those who nvr go . i got one word to say to u ; HAHAHA!! haha. kiding. no la . but its really awesome lo. then aft svc. i threw blue and green away. sry ah bobbie. ok then russel leong parents fetch me to hougang mrt :) nice haha. then i went home early. quickly took the smeel of me and then 'sleep' :) . haha. nice 'sleep' :) then finally sleep at 3. haha


morning i woke up in a fuss. i was like woah.. its the next day alr. teeth starting pain.. nvm ba... it will be well..

went to sch. just zun zun on time. just sit in class and pay attention.. teacher teach chap 16 finish alr. then she said. :" alvin , y do u look so unhappy?" then i was like " tired" . then aft clss i went dnt block to talk to bryan. he says i had good plan. but when things changes. know it will get better. and i agree. my left arm is reliefed alr. just that its has two markings now. and it matches something. haha and bryan saw it. and he was like woah..

dance awhile then went home. its so great being an introvert. gonna folo joe and be an introvery. bryan says i did a good job in class. so proud of myself. later going find bobbie for 'blue' then go waste time then go server thingy. bye. old me. hello introvert me


This is shit . pure shit... i just realise that violence is not the best solution as i injure my left arm... cant believe i used violence to run away from misery. and now.. my left forearm has an internal bruise.. FUCK U LA ALVIN! i am lost. though i planned what to do le... but i just like dunno .... training helps me relief slighty of this misery... but i need HIM man. desperately. i gotta stop running away from Him. WTF ARE U DOING ALVIN? i know that its about me... im sorry... im sorry i've let u down.. i'm sorry i made u let make a place in ur heart for me. i feel damm bad and sorry towards u and u and U! but as for the U , u should galdy know that u should fucking wake up from urself and change . ! WHO AM I TO JUDGE OTEHRS WHILE I FAIL MYSELF!? wake up alvin.. stop running away...

i cant cry anymore.. i dont have any tears left. i'm even going back to my old ways now. and to u peep. if u dun wan help me take. then nvm. i buy myself . i shall burn my money and life away. $6 for 20 red.. sighed.. whats happening to me. !

i have none in terms with u alr. when we talk. i just stayed blank! when i try to start a new topic. i fail. . . if i were to get u back... its like 2 yrs later.. whenever i am like shiok. then i fall. ~a righteous man falls 7 times~ its this part of it? am i to fall 7 times ? its been 5 times alr.. im tired of this... YTF is this happening to me man.. i thought all was well. till now.. my tears have been shed ...

i wanted to go wherever u will go. but when im gone. how do u light the shadows of ur way? how? whenever i look at some parts of u. i feel worried... sigh...

touth say no more bout this emoeth me. y ?


Ninabeihigh!! today so ok ok la ahah. but v blessed. alot free stuff today.

morning wake up at 6 (from a 5hrs nap) then i kina dont wanna leave my bed cuz its super nice la. hah. then i went to prepare all these and get ready to go to sch. went sch at 7.30 then talk to arthur then go for chess competition.

PIANG EH!! SO MANY NERDS SIA!!! me and clarence was like wah 1st time see so many nerds. either they are weird or weird like 10%ok ok onli lo. v funny man. ahaha. then morning 1st match i like sianz sianz dun wan play sia.. cuz i morning sickness. then i just anyhow play. almost win but lose. 2nd game i won. 3rd game play with winston.. i starting wining then dunno what happen. nvm ba ahha.4th game play with sajc person ahha. won him sia. not bad not bad. then my mood go up le:)

5th game the best la. cuz it was a ajc person. then i talked to him bout jc stuff and dance stuff.. didnt noe he bboys too ahah. but he slacker la. then the judge say start. then i owned him alr. then i feel v bad . cuz he nice person. so my score was like 3/5.then 6th game lost to a hwa chong guy. he super wow man. then 7th game play with some loser .. talk so much cock .. ask me for draw in the start. i say ok. then later he change his mind then i say anything lo. so we play. then he playing that time talk so much sia. i wanted to like 'CAN U JUST SHUT THE **** UP AND PLAY?!' he claims to be a bboy . woah... 8th game SUPER PISSED! play with some TOOOT!!! then i ask him draw. he say dont wan . *^!*!^@#$&*^@# then nvm just play. starting i losing. then i keep asking draw then he dao me sia. DAMM BAD!! then i wining le i still ask draw. then he gave up and draw lo. then he ask me y i dun wan play when i wining. then i say:"cuz i dont wanna waste my time !" then i just walk away. pissed off man. haha. but nvm la. i got 4.5/8 which means i qualify for the national squad. but then i dun wan go.

cuz
1) waste time
2) waste money
3) i dont wanna play chess for nuts.
4) so manny toots sia. (but got 2 pretty girl ahah).
5) i got better stuff to do:)

ok then i went home in a cab. i today got alot things free luh. 1) free lunch, 2) free cab ride to there, 3) free $2. 4) free cab ride home:). haha. blessed man:). so i got home today. DAMM LA!! sec 4 like * SIA!! everyday need go back sch. the holiday like not holiday. but not bad la haha. tmr got servers night!~!! WHOOO . tmr go sch then gonna break with arthur then i go home slack slack then get ready go meet friend hehehe. i wan going take my *blue*. but i wan *red* banana helping me get ! WHOOOO . aft that then no more alr. cant ta han alr. 22 days le. pua ta han alr. onli 1 person can stop me ahah. then aft that go servers night. I PRAY THAT MY MOM WILL LET ME GO OUT AT 3.30 or so !! AMEN! . ok man i need put time in for Him la. now i like some &&^&*^*&^&*^!%&^#%@^&$%#@ la ahha.

SHIT MAN when sch reopen.. the stupid PATATO maybe will shake my hand cuz i qualify for the national squad. nvm ahah. its an acheivement. PRAISE GOD !! 5hrs of sleep nia. and i still can play so well. Its Him lo. cuz i losing that time i like !#@$#$#@!@#@!@! -pray in spirit ahha. then super nice then i win . if i lose is i lose with integrity ! YEA! ok i gonna garena le . bye bye. OYA JAVIS!!! NICE TEAM WORK YYO!!!


LALALALALA

today morning wake up like 9+ then i like dont wan go out of house until 11 then i got ready to leave haha. then met up with amos and joel at mpg. dance till 1.30 and MAN! my windmill is too high! Jesus will make it right amen! float now even more zai alr!:) whooo!! . then they follow me go pasta mania eat. i like the aglio olio haha. nice ok!.

then went join dg. and rachel come church today. Piang EH! i actually dunno one lo. until the brandon keep suaning me then i noe. its the past la boy. 2yrs le lei. I've moved on:) to a better life now! but its gonna get better cuz eagles fly high and dont go low.:). reuel was sitting in front of me and someone was too haha. long time nvr see u le sia. u look good:) ok then svc was SUPER TOUCHING . like worship and holy com. i will explain other time ba. cuz today dont feel like talking bout it here YET!.

then aft svc. found out lucius in BR le. Gz bro. then went play hotd4 !@#$#@ play till stage 4 i stomach pain. then i rush to toilet to shit. then when i came bak. i died haha. but nvm la . no mood anws. went follow javis go bank in money. he is like 1/5 of the way alr. 4/5 then he got money for isreal trip le haha. i also savig now. i am far away but MY HARVEST WILL COME AMEN! whoo when my harvest come i will be SUPER RICH! . now i want to sow more man. cuz its His money lo. went play lan cuz was super bored. WAH PIANG EH ! coach say wan study romans with me and javis then nvr. nvm ba i start myself! i wan study romans . its super nice. next sunday me javis and maybe ethan gonna do it!:) cuz its nice! .finally i went home.

super nice day today. so touched by his love. wanna get this revelation lo. Romans 6:14 (or something) ; FOR SIN SHALL NOT HAVE DOMINANT OVER ME , FOR I AM NOT UNDER LAW BUT UNDER GRACE!!! this is what i learnt ytd. nice lo. then today pastor lawrence also talk bout sin. so like have link lo. ok bye bye.


ytd was ok barhz. but dg was great!:).

went sch. then lessons like no lessons like that. then aft sch went to watch javier team vs nicholas soh team. super nice match can! nicest was javier triple kill. nicholas soh clap sia. 1st time lol. then in the end, javier team won. the score is 14(javier)-19(nicholas). but javier kill 6 towers(1 denied). nicholas killed 1 tower. so in the end javier team won. then darren ngio kena kan by everyone aha. but they went to celebrate. so i went home.

was using com. then javis ask me go arcade with them. then didnt noe andrew was coming... nvm barhs. playing hotd 4 with javis and the machine like kena car bang one.. died so early.. sighed. noob machine... nvm barhs. then went meet wei hua at serangoon bus interchange then we all go chomp chomp eat. then go dg le. dg was great! then we go play lan awhile. sigh i've become a noob le. but nvm i got a mini revelation! :) like if i know how to do something(windmill) then i sudddenly like dunno. is cuz like He want to protect me from my pride lor. maybe i cant handle the pride yet. but HE will help me ! lalalal SO HAPPY TODAY! i thought today must kena lock at home do hw. then my parents now both out. so like shiok sia. if ur reading this then wanna go out. call me:) ok i'll go do my own things now. bye bye


SIGHED!!!!!!!!!!!! .

tuesday eh went sch then cca. then go home match.
wednesday. went home match from 1-7, 8-9.. super long can. nvr go dance cuz shoulder v pain and my mom ask me try to stop alr. so i stop going classes now. so i'm gonna practise with Him. and sch ppl. yea

TODAY!!! MOST SIA SUAI LA FUCK!

morning sch then i had stomach crams.. went to shit then felt better. then slept for 20mins in el class.. cuz v pointless and my head abit funny. then aft that super refreshed. went for the competition thing. then teacher say 4E cant play cuz march got remedial. DICK MAN the stupid PATATO say one. then we go find the PATATO he dont dare talk to us. then we bomb the whole sch find it hod. then she came and help us to allow us to play.. damm dumb..

then teacher made reshuffle and my team vs colin team. !#$# i thought they were noob. cuz ethan say they bout bobbie standard. then i thought wah i got one hong yeen sure can one la. then we watch javier match !#$@##@ SIA LA he 15-0 score sia. super pro. i felt damm bad la. sec 2 i let down their team BADLY! then they damm pissed offed with me. then slowly things became better. everybody keep playing and they improve alot while i play for fun and improve alittle.

we made some team plans. then we planned. potm, rk, sk, pl, enigma. then the game started. opp team ban 1st. they ban sladar, tinker, then forget the rest while we ban sf, es, i forgot ahha.
then we draft . they choose sa 1st then i was like JOKE SIA! then we choose na and rk... dunno y choose na and not sk.. then they choose dark seer and lich then we choose potm... then they choose enigma and sk. then i was like CHI BYE LA then almost kena dq... my enigma best of my heros la. then they dont wan pick 1st. then hong yeen choose dp for me. fuck u la praveen. i nvr say my dp pro , i say my dp improved alot.. then he feeding alr then blame me...

we early game damm good. but we lost...
mistakes:
me - nvr wards all the way, nvr go hunting.
lukas - nvr hunt, (then i dunno alr cuz nvr see him much).
praveen -kill enigma then gem give sa take.. then we cant kill sa anymore.. , too chiong
js - none cuz he doing a good job.if have is small mistake
hong yeen - assign wrong lane(cant blame cuz dunno in the start). nvr farm well.(cant blame cuz he kena lich .. ) he good captain. but i just let them down ..

pravven super kao pei la. play halfway lose le scold me. early game my fault but i dont mean it right. should have just give me my enigma and i'll do good.. sigh forget it i let down my 2 teams in the competitions alr. really sorry. but at least this is better.

now my plan is to quit dota as there is no point playing anymore. but if i play. i play for fun with friends. aft march holidays. no more gaming. i feel damm bad to js man.. his dreams and face kena shattered.. sigh. nvm . too obbessed with this competition until i nvr heaer sermon pb sia!. last night i cried la. like listen to worship song then cry liao. but it was worth it ba . cuz now all things are ok alr:) damm good luh ahha. DANCE DANCE! now needa burn tmr and sat away. cuz sat actually planned to go competition but NO! haha. should have tell my mom i am free sia so i can go hong kong.. but nvm la. i tmr going cca then go dg. sat gonna rush all the hw and dunno.

JESUS IS THE WAY MAN! think the most important reason y i now like suddenly crazy alr is cuz I nvr piroritize him in my life . No condemnation AMEN! like what ethan tell me. not what ppl think of u but what u think of urself. and i know its not what i think of myself onli is what HE THINKS OF ME ; He is my beloved son in whom i'm well pleased. they now i noob le then noob lo. i can do nothing.. i have my aims now:) working towards it le. BYE SRY for long posting :X


say a few words to get someone to reality then he angry me . JOKE SIA!


sigh. u ppl get to go to such an awesome church man. listen in service la. pastor prince &ben sermons good ok. even ur know the word alr:' no condemnation ' do u put it in ur life? eg:" His strength comes forth in my area of weakness". u suck in things right? u lost right? then ask Him come in la. Eg:" as He is so are u in this world". He is pro in stuff. he got talents. then u also have right? u got all the things u can get lei. cuz that u nvr ask. u of little faith. thats his constant rebuke. so nice can? ' u of little faith'. listen to sermon la. spend time with him, feed on him.

ok its v obvious who i saying. but it applies to u all who are down. who are depressed. who think that theres nothing to live for anymore. wt...? is this. look at me can? i got out of a relationship, drepressed, sad. still cling on the her. still like no aim all this, felt like dieing. felt like leaving church. felt like not having friend. etc. all the things i thought before. but NO! cuz HE IS THE REASON Y I LIVE! see me now. my life so awesome now la. CUZ ITS FILLED WITH JESUS EVERYDAY! u should do it too. if u see no fruits coming. go water the seed la cock! water= feed on Jesus words.

best la i tell u. if ur feel down or anything. come talk to me . i promise HE will use me to help u. cuz HE done it once . HE will do it again. BECAUSE OF HIS BLOOD AND HIS FINISH WORK!. THERE IS THEREFORE NOW NO CONDEMNATION!!. 1john x:x ahah. as he is so are u in This world. hey THIS IS OUR GOD k? he woke me up and lifted me high from my trials and testing. and it can be a testimony or a help to others. cuz it helped someone alr. HE LO. no more me lo. is HE LO! ok ah. anything can ask me one. if u think u loser. let me rephrase it for u. U ARE A HOPELESE ETC ETC ETC ETC LOSER!! thats y u need Jesus to make u winner!

ok i go sleep le *yawns* dunno y blog so much today. ok nite nite .Alvin:" no more blogging today". Alvin-Alvin:" ok. YES SIR! good night.". Alvin -Alvin" u sure?". Alvin-Alvin:" YA LA GOOD NIGHT!"


TODAY!! AWESOME!! AWESOME AWESOME!!!

go sch morning shiok sia. cuz listen sermon for v long as i had to walk to sch cuz back gate close cuz i late haha. then had bio(no teacher), chem (fun luh cuz new chap then learn alot.) , english(not bad cuz learn stuff too) , Maths(ok ok), recess(eat and talk), maths( got back test. got 16/20. hit my aim :) nvr aim full marks cuz no desire. i just wan a1:) ). then physics(nvr sleep sioa! cuz andy got strong aura ahha). then had amaths(learnt chap16.. super slow can.. but nvm la. got it in my head. then got back test results! i got 19/25! which is a1:) previous test i got d7. so like 60 fold!!! or 30.. but nvm !! STILL IMPROVE! PRAISE GOD LA. i thought get 16 onli lol.)..

basic differentiation i dunno how do.. advance de then i know. super weird can.. so i gonna get my basics first.:) then break alittle while. i got more handstand balance:) floats good. side chair good:) shoulder ... SUPER PAIN! ahha. but God will heal it. Jesus can windmill so Alvin also can:) AMEN!

today kena kan by my team lol. cuz sat and sun they training then i nvr join them.. then today i play with them lo. we got owned la.. the other team like super pro.. sigh dunno y so noobish. nvm.. Jesus pro rite? so am i . AMEN! aft holidays no more gaming. AMEN! now the team.. they making me carrier sia.. damm scary but i can farm well.. but still v scary cuz once i see my team feeding then my morale low then i dunno what to do alr= anyhow play= GG! haha.

sermons really help alot. i dun wan waste ttime on games alr. aft holidays i quiting . now got dance, studies and His word. damm nice luh. its like all in His hands le. so v good luh:) . dance improving studies focusing more. listening more sermons:) but now need wait aft march holiday. gonna clear all the competition with HIM! as he is pro so am i:)AMEN!.hope tmr can break sia. i wan mill mill!:) ok time to sleep le good night ! CHICAKALAGINA!


8-3-09

ytd was awesome. morning wake up 8+ then use com until 10+ then i thought it was 9 but then it was 10+ so i rushed to prepare then reach suntec at 11.50 then see the time le then dont wan go career fare alr. sry gillian, jeryn and christina and the other ppl who went:( haha.

so i joined dg ytd. ate pastamania!!! suddenly got urge eat there nowsadays. then i played hotd 4 with drew.. drew died first.. then i died.. AH NOOB ALVIN!! .aha.then i go break with joel and remix they all were there... joel teach me proper handstand and now handstand more control alr. but i wan perfect balance sia. ! AMEN!

then go for service. service super awesome can! pastor talk bout self. and i keep hearing the sermon bout self. he gave me an awesome reavelation:" to get away from self is to be absorb in Jesus and to be absorb in Jesus is to know him more. and to know him more is to know that he died on the cross for me and there is now no condemnation, as He is so am i IN THIS WORLD! and etc:)"then aft svc went lan. played 2 games both own. but was playing with noobs.. so thats y..ahha. then went home nvr kena scolding.


ALRIGHTS!! today was so awesome yo.

morning wake up 9 then use com slack slack then until 10.45 then i rushed to prepare then 11.15leave house. thought i'll be late and i reached there 12.05 that was late. but nvm cuz they all havent go in room. so PRAISE GOD!:).

ambs ldr change to anna le. wah v good lo. i anything one cuz change=growth. thats what i caught and i believed and i reeped from:). so AMEN!then had breifing and we drew deesigns. i draw the ambs design. sigh not nice lo. but aft add colour then not bad luh. gonna draw another nicer one for mei. but when i have time i guess. cuz pretty busy nowsadays:) ahah new word. cool!

then had p&w. aft praise my stomach pain. cuz just eat then i jump.. next time i eat earlier. then didnt worship much but when i did. i felt like crying. then sermon starting nvr listen 100% but still got listen. but i caught alot. its like when i face trials and testing, i do not look at what i am now or what i have done to lead me this way etc etc. but i just look at the cross. and dont look at this things. look to Jesus then i will like WHOOOO!!! ahha. ok. seriously nice luh. havent read my notes yet. think tmr i will :)AMEN!

then aft that had debrief. coach tell us anna take over and stuff. then went find javis at arcade and play hotd4. !@#$# we played till last stage and he died and then the boss i left like 1 more catridge then die.. !$@#@ nvm la. next time will be TOP AGENT! confirm one.

then went to millena to eat . then go lan for 1.5hrs. played 2 games dota. 1st game super unfair.. 2int,1 noob agl vs 4 agl.. canot play la. 2nd game. tsk tsk. other team super dumb can... like we ending mid they still wan push. we got like 2 tankers and they got nuts. ahah dunno y talking bout dota here. maybe i'm abit crazy now ahha. owell

then i reach home 10.15!! wah damm blessed can! my mom nvr scold me . like i gained their trust alr.

then aft that i read romans. SUPER AWESOME! paul talked bout law and stuff. u should read sia. it blessed me. but i'm still at chap 3. played private server and its super laggy.. so i just gonna like tmr morning then play...

tmr morning gonna go fitness corner and train and hopefully do 2 rounds of sprinting. AMEN! i'll . ok gonna sleep now. super tired and BLESSED!.

look to jesus. because of his blood. and his finish work, there is therefore now no condemnation!> AEMN! so change=growth, no more condemnation, OYA!! aft service got a little worship. the just before alter call one. SUPER TOUCHING YO!. i worshipping halfway then the time like stop like that. then He talked to me lo. damm nice luh!. say: something(i forgot) but will rmb AMEN!. then say what i'll kill the pride for u, u will be my light,shinning, my bboy light!!! WHOOO!!!! super inspiration to dance liao lo. HIS bboy light lei. oya. aft my trials and testing. then i can windmill sia. so like got link de lo. alalalal. ok gonna sleep le. bye


today thought got mass workout then in the end.. dont have. then had a long free period in class. so me and angrove play millionaire. and we WON!!! so im stopping alr ahah. now at least i can focus in class more haha. then today like super slack can. morning 8-9.40free period. then 9.40-11 is health check. then 11.10-1.30 is physics class. then aft that recess then 1 period of chem. shiok can.? then aft sch went for e gamging briefing and the dota competition is 7days. WTF SIA. i'm going there as a feeder T_T.. nvm ba..

then aft that went for cca! now cca more life lor. can talk more then also v slack ahah. then aft cca went fitness corner and train with andy. sia la! his training power bodoh! . super strainius for me. but it will help me. cuz all i wan is to carry my own weight good can le. thats what say liang tell me.

then i went home. and became no life again... im gonna get over it by private servering.. but quest fun ar haha. nvm la. see how things go lo. cuz life is really better for me now lor. really thank God got such thing as cd so that i can listen sermon :) . damm nice la. learned that Joseph is the closest depiction of Jesus love for us. v blessed la. u peeps should start listening too:). ok i going bathe le . bb


when ur fulfilment is in christ. everything esle works perfectly:)

so i'm gonna just focus on him lo. cuz like i now v blur in my life alr. everything like revolves about the 'i' which is not good. so need him le lo. always need him de lo. 2 days nvr listen sermon alr like my life wan peng san alr.
sianz la. like still thinking bout the past
super blur now with what i'm heading to.
gotta keep a distance from u ppl...
help me DADDY!!!



ahhh. maple is so boring... training damm sianz. so gonna get over the urge by playing private server.. anws. today school was quite fun:)

morning had pe. we went running a punggol park . but me and sean sat down at some shack and we play who wants to be a millionaire. then we got till like $125k then we died.. sadded. then aft that we had history. quite amuzing. then had enligh! perraraa forgot theres a class! then we had fun in the class. me and sean tried to play who wants to be a millionair again. got till $250k then we died.. while david got 1 million. ahah.

at cheena class i try again. then i got 500k !! so i ggave up.. then had ss then free period! i went train handstand awhile:) whoo getting it alr. awesome. then had amaths test... tan geok han relief mdm tang. he such a !$%@#$%^@$#^%@ nvm. he super strict la. then i finish my paper alr he keep staring at me... nvm . confirm 16/25 one or more. cuz question 1 i anyhow do then the rest i know how do ahah. then aft that i came home. play maple. then find it super boring..!!!! aft my shoulder ok alr i dont have to stay at home to rot anymore. i can train mill mill alr:))) ok i go bathe le bb


today ok ok luh.
morning had mass workout in hall. did most of their stuff and i found out my flexibility improved! it will improve more AMEN! ahah. ok anws. had chem lab and i screwed up my expriment cuz i was following damien and he did alot of wrong things. nvm ba. at least i got the ans:) ahah.

ok then had chinese test. mood swing abit but nvm cuz Jeus came:) ahah.
then aft that had english(super boring..) then had maths (quite nice) then bio(teacher nvr come. so we went home earlier. but me bryan and arthur and lukas go dnt block. then my shoudler is like DEAD!! but i got handstand !!WHOOO! arthur found out something today. his direction is totally wrong. now he training anti clock instead of clock. thats great! cuz i'm clock then if he is anti clock. we both partner is v nice haha.

then aft that they wanted to go lan. but i went home instead cuz i felt like playing maple... but i like dont feel like playing maple like that lei.. so i gonna garena with them. maple is lame. and yet i wanna play. whazzap with me? ahah.

ok gonna garena soon bb:)


today i feel super guai :) ahha.

morning i had chem and i memorised the thingy teacher wan us memorise alr; k, na, ba, ca, mg, zn, fe, pb, sn, cu, mg, ag and au. boo ya haha.
ok anws. aft chem had maths test. then it was 'no comment'. i dunno how do sia.. cuz i forgot alot of stuff.. but i think still can get a1 cuz my graph like correct ahah. ok AMEN!.

then aft that had history. teacher nvr come. but tmr coming back le. so must serious!:) ahha. ok then had english.(did my work! but v boring..) then physics. super nvr sleep can! . like i paid attention luh. sitting with andy was great man. like he had this aura that keeps me focus man! tks bro.

ok then had assembly then went to use hall to dance. whooO!! got windmills! but just flexiblity prob. now. stretch alvin strech!! then aft that went for CCA! awesome right? but i was 1 hr late ahha. then i got my attendance mark. then gonna go compeition. but i dont wanna play serious cuz i just wan my cca points:). then the dota competition i feel like quiting cuz i damm noobish now and i wanna dance!. sigh sigh. suddenly got urge to play maple again lol. should i? i dunno.. maybe for a while till i bored then i stop. I DUNNO!! haha.

Alvin is a good boy AMEN!:)


i'm really confuse bout relationships now... so i aint gonna bother bout it anymore.
my aim is to dance and study!
today went sch late. talk to angrove. and we planned to go jap aft we earn money and buy ff7 stuff haha. that will happen AMEN!.

ok today had chem test then its was ok cuz i know how do. wanted to copy bryan but i disagree with his answers so i chose my own ahah. and mine was right! cuz i asked andy, the chem pro:). haha. today bryan change place with andy. then now i am sitting with him. acutally i thought it was bad.. but then it turned out to be good cuz i believed that changes= growth:) and andy really helped me alot. like he is v good lo. so yea. hope i'll do it. Thanks bro:).

ok then aft that had physics. this time i gave the teacher 100% attention ahah.. awesome man. then had amaths.. learned some chain rule with rate of change thingy. and teacher say thrusday gonna have amaths test on chapter 14. ok AMEN I'll get A1:)!

then aft that talked to hy and lukas while waiting for bryan. and they wan me train rk and one more hero which i cant rmb haha.then aft that me and bryan went dnt block to practise haha. floats are improving:) handstand getting over fear alr. shoulder not really hurt alr so tmr ill train windmill! awesome man now. gotta keep dancing. got jy . haha. then aft that went home.

i feel quite empty man. Jesus gonna feel that emptiness AMEN! ahah. ok la. nth say le bb


haha. for me i found my goals and caught this awesome revelation today- dont worry bout tmr cuz each day got new mana and just feed on the mana each day and enjoy the day so dont worry lo.

haha. good that sara is going back church. hope all things will be well for her. hope wont be so like now but change for the better.
as for me. i'm gonna live my life to the fullest for Him!(without her)
bye!


today was a Awesome day!

morning went gym alone then go joggging with wei hua. ahah. my legs feel like wanna die alr . but nvr . thank God. then went church find remix. and then go study at kfc. study halfway i feel super sianz cuz i v tired and i finish my study alr. so like yea. ahah. then i left with amos to break at mpg

my windmil now like stupid sia.. gotta get it back soon. Jesus help me! and my shoulder now its like dead. super disgusting... haiz. dont wanna talk bout dance la. just needa train harder.

ok then wei li came. and then me and amos followed her to esplanade to buy potato salad for dean. then amos bought it to eat and it was nice haha. then go eat lunch at marina food court. not bad sia. aft that go svc. sat with dg today. nice. but i didnt focus so much cuz i somehow like sianz alr.
then pastor prayed for double portion return . then suddenly felt like crying. cuz its like so nice. and i know that faith= word of christ. and yea i'll keep listening sermon.

anws. aft svc went arcade and saw a hod 4 super pro. lol. then i go meet coach lily and had a long and nice talk. learned alot of things from her. hehe i got 3 goals now. super awesome goals. and i'm gonna work towards it:)

then aft that i just went home. and i wan God to kill the pride in me
AMEN!

wah i leave my com on 1 day alr and the sky of love dl onli dl like 78% . quickly dl lei ahah. nvm aft tonight confirm ok alr. AMEN!