Chicakalagina~
Saturday, February 21, 2009
alrights:) blessed day today man! really awesome. morning wake up watch okto. then eat breakfast then woke bobbiekor up. then go prepare then go church ahah. actually wanted to go there and like disguse myself so ppl dont know me . and actually wanted to go to heart of God church. but benny was busy and i dont wan go so WHOOO!!! thank God sia.!
so i went to church and find bobbie first. i started something today:) but gonna quit yet still gonna do it cuz its shiok but digusting.. haha. randomness.
ok then i went to find drew and saw him playing hod4.. lol they died at stage 6.. then went to bk to eat and go service. woah man. actually dont wan p&w one . then suddenly felt it alr. so p&w lo:) then v nice sia! so touched . then sermon ok luh learnt alot. but still blessed me:). aft that pastor say worship again. then i was super super touch aft the songs. i suddenly felt like resting.
then God spoke to me luh. say: I want you to know that I love you Son. stop running away from me , come back to me.
then i started crying. so touched man. cuz last sunday paul ask me if i know Jesus love me or not. then i say no. plus i feel like running away from ncc and go to another church. cuz i had a black heart and use hate to subsitute my lack,loneliness. now i know that intermercy is the thing that fills my loneliness. and Jesus is the answer. so yea. its really awesome. then aft dare. i went to buy sermons. like some siao gina sia. i bought 6 ! haha. actually wanted to buy 11 but not enough money cuz i still have to lan. so i bought the best 6:) . then went play hod4with javis. and we owned:) i got a a b a a s :) and he got a a b a a a . but both of us got perfect agent.
ok then play bball while waiting for drew. (wah i hope tmr caleb can give me what i want sia...) haha random again. but aft that i'm really gonna stop. ok anyways. aft that we went to lan. then played dota. wah piang eh. play 1 game then the losing team dont wan play alr.. its like so balanced can. just that i'm fat onli luh. haha. i needa know how to kill man or i'll fail my team in the competition.. then javis say play this game what slide ninja slide. damm fun la. then the song numb. quite nice cuz its remix haha. then i saw praveen at lan lol! i hear one familiar voice. then i look there and i saw black! then i shout praveen! then he look and me and i ask him what to buy then he see me . then he was like O_O . and he said. u made me proud, wait u always made me proud. haha. cuz he teach me how play dota one ma then now me and him same standard.
then play one ai game. then kena own by ai lol .
then me and ethan went home and we talked.and i got home :) my mother reimburse me $21 for the sermons! awesome man! now i got alot money. and mei! tmr i dont wan eat expensive food. cuz i wan buy belt!!
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wah piang eh. i seriously like give up le then u suddenly tell me i haven. crazy u. i really like no more feelings alr. cuz He and other ppl help me . then like when i look at the thing i gave up . all i can say is 'tsk tsk . why havent move one, why stil like that' i onli feel sad for the thing i gave up luh. i dont really care alr. i just dont like ppl peng wei onli. but i always peng wei one:) ahha. God change it! AMEN!!!!
ok. serious buisness cuz this involves my Daddy's buisness:). ok today pastor benjamin talked about the heart of worship! its really good man. cuz worship touched my heart today. and i feel really bless cuz of His grace for me. though i have gone bad during the short period of time. His grace was there and it changed me. ok peeps dont worry. i'm changing alr. tmr is the turning point. aft tmr. I wont go back to the ways i came from. but i'll go into His buisness:). ok anyways.
pastor shared bout worship is magnifying God and it will build up a confidence. and when u have confidence, u have a clarity of mind:) which means u know right from wrong and u will like make the right choices luh.
and when u life your hands in worship, u are saying. "Lord, i surrender". and when u surrrender, God can fill you:) cuz he filled me . my cup was empty . but he filled it to the brim today and it overflowed. now i'm ready to serve again. ready to engage in His buisness again:) cuz its really awesome man. i'm so touched i want to share this. but wait the the harvest first. cuz its still in the turning point haha. and he also shared like whatever u are in or anything blah blah blah. just worship God . cuz the goliaths of it shall FALL! . ahha sry i lazy type what is the blah blabhh blah. ok basically these are the main points luh. if u nvr come today. sadded luh. but nvm la can ask me. but all i can share is the message. but during worship its really awesome. its really awesome that God talks to you and just touch u:). haha.
tmr morning i going gym with jeremy!! whoo. finally sunday morning cna go gym ok. tonight must sleep early. tmr gym i gonna chiong alr. haha. then tmr gonna follow wanru. cuz my dg so many ppl nvr come.. wah i getting fat sia. keep eating alot.. nvm gonna gym!! ahha. ok tmr need to do my work finish. amaths i like nvr do sia.. chem also nvr do.. piang eh! . haha ok i shaldnt dota .. wait i feel like it.. should i or should i not . ok i should!! haha bye ! gona use tinker!!
