Alvin~ 16. was born on 20april 1993. Is a believer or Christ and His grace:). loves: ALL TIME LOW! BBALL! DANCE! AND MORE!:) hates: hongsters, ppl who think they are better then others and not respecting them.






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today i've become a good boy. (i always am) AMEN!

ok anws. dg was good. learnt alot from coach. then i waited for bus to go mrt. then the 315 driver just zoom pass the bus stop . like wt!? he just ran pass us without seeing. then i buai ta han. i go take taxi home. haha. then i slept at 12+ was smsing halfway. then suddenly fall asleep:( sry nvr reply ahha.

morning woke up at 7 then sleep then wake up 10 then sleep then finally wake up at 11 then watch tv blabh blabh blah. then aft lunch at 1 . i did my hw till like 4 then i pack my bag for tmr. and i just found out i have v limited bags.. onli i like 5 bags... 3 too small 1 too big. 1 havent ttry... so i gotta buy a new bag soon. ahha. hope tmr will be presentable. morning gonna go gym alone then jogg with wei hua then go church. so tonight must sleep early! i still havent prepared my chem notes. cuz too lazy alr. i left pe assignment... ss and history sbq.. ( i hate sbq..). and english summary( dunno how do cuz damm hard and i lazy haha) . so i 'll leave this undone assignments till later. chem notes later gonna make:)

gotta improve my english and my potm ahah. ok bye bye ~POTMPOTM!!!


awesome day yet again:) so blessed man. !

caught an awesome revelation from the story of joseph last night. v blessed nowadays.
morning go sch had mass workout and i did it lol. 1st time i do properly . then aft that was bio. had a talk with bryan. didn't pay attention ahah. then had ss. still talk to bryan. then it was physics spa. O.A. 1 LOL!!! damm scary. but i thoght it was for mid year then ppl start saying its for o level. woah. then i just seriously go do lo. aaron tried to copy me again.. but i didnt let him . yet he saw some answers haha. nvm i made onli 2 flaws. and if the teacher nvr see it. i'll get 10/10 if he saw. then 8/10 cuz i usually get this ranges ahah. nvm i proclaim 10/10 amen!!

theres still OA2 and OA 3 i hope i all full marks . then o level i got a guarenteed 15 marks for physics:) haha. then aft recess i had chem. then i talked to bryan. ahah. me and bryan plan alr. our lives are really blessed by God la. we gonna like do everything tgt(not gay) haha. aft my dota shit. we gonna study together . gonna get into the jc we both want. seriously v blessed. all our problems are gone cuz Jesus took them away. and he settled it for me. haha.

then aft sch i go dnt block break for 1 hr. my shoulders is like terribly bruise man. i tried windmil. failed attempt but i got the collapse alr:)! WHOOOO. then i train turtle until my stomach muscle damm pain.... later i go dg i confirm like super tired one cuz i have alot of muscle craps ahha. my left tricep is damm weird. like one square something. super pain and super weird. but looks nice:)) haha. cute sia!

then aft that i went cca. FIRST TIME SIA!!! AWESOME RIGHT?! then i go there. the president come to me and say. u better dont give me any trouble then blabh blabh blah. feel like wacking him sia. order me like one dog. but i'm a changed man:) so i didnt i just submited. but he scared of me sia. he dont dare talk to me. basically the whole club dont talk to me cuz i'm the oldest there yea. nvm God will turn things around to let me enjoy my time there and allow me to get an A2 for cca. AMEN!

so blessed now:) ahha but when i talk to her. i feel v awkward. and when i look at her. i pity her haha. cuz she's aint going up hill but either making the wrong choices, going downhill or maintaining. God help her AMEN!.

MY GOALS:
1) dance
2) abit gym and tonning
3) study!
4) Spend time with God.
5) Live This LIFE FOR JESUS!!!



from last week will now. i have flu but it got worser and worser each day- throat get v dry in the morning. Praise God i quitted something alr. or it'll make it worse. anyways. ytd my flu got damm bad until when i sneeze i got a headache and my nose is like a tap which cant be closed. then Jesus last night close for me:) .

this morning damm jia lat.. i morning actually ok one. then i go sch. then my nose like wanna die alr.. i damm crazy sia.. sick also still go dance. still train for competition. and still wanna go gym.. but no time go gym sia. sunday morning i go:) amen! then ytd the dance class.. i got alot of burises.. and morning i wake up . my shoulderS, back , neck and thigh damm pain. Nvm He carried my pains and sickness at the cross !

but i know and i believed that i'm healed. cuz 1 john 4:17 says as Jesus is so are you in this world.! so Jesus dont have flu ma. then i also dun have. Jesus dont have bruises on His body so i also dont have! AMEN! nvm tmr ok alr. and tmr got OA!!! NA MA!! nvm Jesus will heal me. pray for me people! i'm healed ! AMEN!!


today was (i dunno how descirbe).

morning go school then talked alot. kenneth was early today lol. cuz he kena 2 times late alr then he dont wan 3rd time. i hope he can come next dare. haha. ok then anyways had pe.. damm la i thought today pe was gym.. then it was peep test..we go to indoor sports hall for the peep test.. then like i had a bad bad flu.. (i'm healed AMEN!)then i couldn't run properly.. i run till 10.5 then i stop... i still can force myself to run till 11.x but i didn't .. cuz i dun wanna tourture myself.. then teacher say timing for 2.4 is 10.30. pui. i dun wan. i wan 10mins. i show u nex nex week i'll get it. lol pe teacher gave us a crappy project.. dont feel like doing sia.. nvm. when i feel like then i do. ok then history teacher nvr come. so we talked alot rubbish in class.. then had english. i pissed bryan off and then we both ok alr haha. then we talked. and he say i changed:) good sia. so blessed lor. when changes happen- its for growth. and i lost something.. thats a change. so the growth is me changing for the better:) awesome ? YEA!! .

then i chinese, lukas, shao liang, kenneth and porn tay play dare or dare. super funny la. then ss they also play cuz teacher nvr come.. haha. super funny. aft ss was amaths. amaths was a killer cuz my brain is like i wanna rest i wanna rest.. then teacher teach alot so my brain almost exploded. but teacher teaching rate of changes. so no kick luh haha.

stayed back in sch awhile to do hw.. and i notice- this week i havent go gym once.. thats damm bad la.. i think tmr i maybe going(10%) haha. cuz tmr aft sch gonna dance at dnt block. must get windmills and handstand and nice turtle:)) AMEN AMEN AMEN!!


25 feb!!!

went sch then talked alot in class. had chem prac. got alot ammonia in the air but i cant smell:) thank God. haha. cuz got blocked nose. then aft sch went dnt block to break. saw jackson learning from arthur. did my own stuff and i can do handstand!! but not v good. gonna train harder. then aft that met up with arthur, hy, lukas, praveen and rj. then we go lan trained again. omg man. i kena own like shit.. but nvm la. js help me pick new heros alr. i dont feel like playing dota alr lol.. cuz i got better things to do..
then aft lan i rushed to esply for say liangs class. we talk then he teach me mills again. damm sad sia i forget how do. then he teach me. then i still cannot do cuz v tired and had a bad flu.. then he say my turtle can le! praise God sia! but need more control can le. then i went home . took holy com, listen to pastor sermon on the train home and ate panadol then go zzz. slept at 10 woke up at 6.50 lol


I was in a place, a place full of darkness, being tortured by whips of wild fires. The first slash struck onto the area I felt pain in; it made me felt different. I felt pain yet I was feeling great. It was like a missing piece fixed back to my phenomenon puzzle.
The second slash made me felt that I grew stronger and smarter ; grew to a new 'me' . When the third slash was struck , I had no more feelings, it was like me being immune to the pain. And I found out why I was immune , it is due to the oblivious one who was slashing me ; it was my thoughts. I was killed by my thoughts all this time; it made me felt stupid yet stronger. Now it is of no use to hurt the harmless me , because I am a all new 'me'.
Without much hesitance, I brought myself back together, piece by piece.I should find a way out and leave these in a tiny pigment of my memories, so that these thoughts will not harm me anymore. All i have left to say to you is :" Thanks for the memories even those which were not so great." I hope you will grow up and spare a thought for others.
Finally, I took a brace step; to fight the darkness with the light to the light. By following my love for you, I found the doorway out of this bright darkness to the dark light. I took a step out of this doorway and I found myself into the renaissance reality. I found something more important, and that is you. I found you, my dear.
As soon as that happened, an awe of light came. Surprisingly, the light was dark and you were being carried away from your knight in shining armor to a hobo that you do not know. I saw you falling in love with that horrible hobo who you know not much. I was thinking :" Do you even have a brain? Why would you choose a hobo instead of a knight?!" I could not care much but i walked away, hopefully , to a far place which I know not of, walking with the mindset that I was your spare.
Right before I walked off, I wrote a note to you saying :" We had it all in front of us , you were the one I was in love, but you always hurt the one you lost and i could not get enough, you were everything that's bad for me so make no apologies now and forever. " I left this note at her doorsteps , walked into a remote realm and I found out that , I lost my ' everything that's bad for me.'

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ok aft ur read this ur may think like wah how can alvin write bout her like that. its not bout her. its just a story and i wrote it for fun ahah. not bad right? but its kinda dumb cuz got songs lyrics one and i anyhow try if can write this way luh.

When kenneth read my compo he was like. u wrote bout her right? so i guessed u peeps may think the same way. but its not. i'm done and over it:) i'm living a better life. a life for Jesus. I love Jesus cuz He first love me:)


oyea:) today was a super awesome day. v blessed and v funny.

morning i go sch. kenneth and lukas was sorta late. then talked alot. and then go class luh. had chem(not bad. learning alot) then maths(boring cuz i know how do liao:) ) then history(damm funny!) then recess(ate noodles aft v long time) then english .

english super funny!!! perrara went out of class that time. think everyone bully russel or something. but v funny! kept laughing. dunno y. then she gave our tests back. i was so hopping i'll get 20+ but i got 17... wt* man... like i wrote such a touching story. but alot of spelling mistakes and i dunno how to use the metaphroes and similey properly(thats what bryan said). then aft english was physics. was abit sad so i just listen. then i didn't sleep!! praise God man. v nice. i learnt bout e=W/Q :) and the current volt thingy in series and parrellel. yea. awesome.

then no assembly so we must stay in home room. then perrara go away cuz she had el oral. damm bad sia. the class bully russel. then dunno what happen. then got a fight. ahha. kenneth+kartigan+russel + shao liang plus other ppl luh. damm funny. russel fall down then i saw kenneth v firece like wack ppl. then cz hold him back cuz he thought he was serious but he play play one. anws. russel cried. then we all consoul him. while the karthigan almost kena wack by me and shao liang cuz he go wack russel. nvm la. we learnt. aha. but i dunno what i learn. i and js sit down watch the fight ahah. :) then Andy stopped the fight by shouting. he is the strongest in the class so must respect:).

ok then aft sch i went to train handstand! and i got it. haha. gonna face my fear and do it. cuz its kinda good to learn it and He gave me a revelation. like pastor prince last time scared to talk one. then now talk alot. then me last time scared handstand one. next time. maybe like pastor prince liket that. use the weakness and glorify God. haha. hope that'll happen for me AMEN!!.

then i went home changed to uniform then i go meet lukas praveen and arthur at city hall. we lanned to train.. but seriously man. its boring man.. hope tmr no lan. but more breaking:). oya. we got our team name alr:) its called :'tby.' lol. sounds like something :) hehe . anyways aft that i went to meet jeryn, wanru and brandon muk and city hall. then we went to some place for servers night.
so blessed yo! met new ppl . ate free food. talked to close friends. received alot of stuff from God:). pastor ask us to ask God for one thing. and i asked' secret':) dont tell u. but its the best thing i could ever ask from God. cuz i read it in the bible b4:) haha.
ok then i went home. and i watch last for one! they are dope man. i wanna be like them! . nvm. take it slow. but i'll get my handstands now man.

oyea. jeryn. see u in sajc:) i'm gonna dsa in ahha. by the grace of God i'll make it through dance and studies:) amen! AMEN! AMEN!! QARA!!!


omg man. sajc cop is 8points for science stream. GGed .. my aim was 7points for l1 r5 without minusing marks. but i hope i can get it man. english gotta get a2!?!!@#$@##
anyways. sajc got a dance society ahah. heard they got a gold. gonna dsa in through dance . hope i make it. ok now i needa chiong dance alr:) studies .. i dont feel like studying now man... like no inspiration. think soon perhaps. like err 3 more weeks ahha. a1 for maths , a maths, physics, chem,bio, history, ss. AMEN!!! chinese pass AMEN!!! english a2 AMEN!!! sajc sajc!! good sch ok. my senior go there. then nex year he gonna be my senior agian. amen!

ivan my $500 next year . get ready:) 7points here i come!


alright i finally know how put skin alr haha. new skin for new me:) ok give comments ahha. some parts i still dunno how make colour lol. ok gotta eat dinner le bye


WHOOOO another awesome day ! haha. so blessed nowadays man. really thank God. more of the days will come and it will all be better and better AMEN! .

today go sch morning i crazy abit. i talked to lukas happy happy then arthur talked to me i give the black face. sigh. morning sickness. nvm nvm its will be gone. then did soduko cuz got free paper and nothing to do cuz bio was super boring.. needa study soon. but aft the competition. haha. chem was ok. finished the noble gases le. then english period not bad luh. but the teacher havent giv bak my compo!! its super nice luh. haha. then physics good:) i first time nvr sleep sia. more to come:) amen!. then amaths teacher teach the tangent and normal finish alr. super easy! then i finally finished my quotient rule hw! aft amaths i talk to hong yeen. then he taught me lina. then js tell me what hero i'm gonna use alr hehe:). 5heros to train. but i lz train luh cuz got better things to do.

ok then i went home and play lo. but today class is super funny. during chinese . porn tay and kenneth go play sex idol . damm funny. they anyhow shoot ppl come play. super funny then teacher go beat kenneth and porn tay haha. but sigh. y now so many ppl v step.. wei qiang now step pia kia. then arthur go cut same hair style as kenneth . just that kenneth one nicer ahha. nvm . God will bring them to the light!

now my life is just going up and up cuz my vision is i'm an eagle. and eagle onli can soar higher and higher. oya. today nvr touch that thing:) good. 4more days and i'm cleared cuz 5 days no touch then grace ma then ok le:) ahha. ok ba i dunno what to say alr haha. bye


today was damm shiok for me man. THANK GOD MAN!!. really v blessed today.
ok morning i woke up 7 by a phone call. thanks yea. cuz if u nvr call i'll still be sleeping:). then i went to changed and buy harshbrown, soya bean then i go wait for jeremy then we go sengkang gy. wah piang eh. the gym 9 then open. so damm sianz then we cab to hougang gym. reach there 8.35 then they also 9am open. so we waited till 9 then go gym. whooo!! trained chest alot:) nice. but i not statisfied with the weights i do.. nvm . i'll grow stronger and better. He will help me:). anways. gym till 9.35 then cabbed home. then quickly rushed to meet mei to study. then i saw wei li at the mrt lol. then found out recently we having the same prob juz that mine sloved first. nvm . Jesus will help u slove ur problems cuz he has done it for me and will do it for u. AMEN!! ok then we went macs to study. then sara came.. then wei li left to find shermaine at esply. haha. then wan ru came. she pmsed... then went for 2nd.. like wt? then i went to find caleb. played max tune abit. then go eat 'candy' . wah gotta stop eating that man.. its a killer to me. gonna stop for 3 reasons. health. Jesus and uhhmm :). ahha. ok then i wanted to follow sara. but she went home.. like wt again? ask me come back church then say she also wan come back. then now i back le she zao. peng wei 2 times alr. nvm. sua. its not that i have feelings still. its just that i dont like like that lo. ok nvm. then i went to join radical today. haha. not bad luh. they quite fun. but nontheless. i sat with rockets. haha. then service learnt alot man.

Right place and right time. :) thats all i need. and He WILL give it to me:) AMEN!! ok then aft svc went lan cuz i wan to kill time.ok then played two games bout own. and i found that i'm quite good haha. improved alot alr. but needa get better to win the competition. but aft the competition i gonna quit dota.

hey peeps. trust God with me bout this two things.
1)quit dota aft my competition.
2) get to study asap
3)find my goals in life
4) quit ****ing
5) listen to God's word:)

AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN!! :)) it will all come to past. really thank God that i changed for the better alot.. i just wanna dance and train now.

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lol dgic is like gone alr la. we aint doing our duties and i doubt we will cuz many ppl wanna quit. then the ls like all go together nvr unit dg(except radical). then rockets now super GGed man. i abit dont wan folo them le. if mei come then i folo her. if mei no come i think i folo i dunno la. see how. but all i know is. God put me at the right place and right time and at the right season :) ok oyea. i'll have qara!! qara man!! AMEN bye bye


alrights:) blessed day today man! really awesome. morning wake up watch okto. then eat breakfast then woke bobbiekor up. then go prepare then go church ahah. actually wanted to go there and like disguse myself so ppl dont know me . and actually wanted to go to heart of God church. but benny was busy and i dont wan go so WHOOO!!! thank God sia.!
so i went to church and find bobbie first. i started something today:) but gonna quit yet still gonna do it cuz its shiok but digusting.. haha. randomness.
ok then i went to find drew and saw him playing hod4.. lol they died at stage 6.. then went to bk to eat and go service. woah man. actually dont wan p&w one . then suddenly felt it alr. so p&w lo:) then v nice sia! so touched . then sermon ok luh learnt alot. but still blessed me:). aft that pastor say worship again. then i was super super touch aft the songs. i suddenly felt like resting.
then God spoke to me luh. say: I want you to know that I love you Son. stop running away from me , come back to me.
then i started crying. so touched man. cuz last sunday paul ask me if i know Jesus love me or not. then i say no. plus i feel like running away from ncc and go to another church. cuz i had a black heart and use hate to subsitute my lack,loneliness. now i know that intermercy is the thing that fills my loneliness. and Jesus is the answer. so yea. its really awesome. then aft dare. i went to buy sermons. like some siao gina sia. i bought 6 ! haha. actually wanted to buy 11 but not enough money cuz i still have to lan. so i bought the best 6:) . then went play hod4with javis. and we owned:) i got a a b a a s :) and he got a a b a a a . but both of us got perfect agent.
ok then play bball while waiting for drew. (wah i hope tmr caleb can give me what i want sia...) haha random again. but aft that i'm really gonna stop. ok anyways. aft that we went to lan. then played dota. wah piang eh. play 1 game then the losing team dont wan play alr.. its like so balanced can. just that i'm fat onli luh. haha. i needa know how to kill man or i'll fail my team in the competition.. then javis say play this game what slide ninja slide. damm fun la. then the song numb. quite nice cuz its remix haha. then i saw praveen at lan lol! i hear one familiar voice. then i look there and i saw black! then i shout praveen! then he look and me and i ask him what to buy then he see me . then he was like O_O . and he said. u made me proud, wait u always made me proud. haha. cuz he teach me how play dota one ma then now me and him same standard.
then play one ai game. then kena own by ai lol .
then me and ethan went home and we talked.and i got home :) my mother reimburse me $21 for the sermons! awesome man! now i got alot money. and mei! tmr i dont wan eat expensive food. cuz i wan buy belt!!
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wah piang eh. i seriously like give up le then u suddenly tell me i haven. crazy u. i really like no more feelings alr. cuz He and other ppl help me . then like when i look at the thing i gave up . all i can say is 'tsk tsk . why havent move one, why stil like that' i onli feel sad for the thing i gave up luh. i dont really care alr. i just dont like ppl peng wei onli. but i always peng wei one:) ahha. God change it! AMEN!!!!

ok. serious buisness cuz this involves my Daddy's buisness:). ok today pastor benjamin talked about the heart of worship! its really good man. cuz worship touched my heart today. and i feel really bless cuz of His grace for me. though i have gone bad during the short period of time. His grace was there and it changed me. ok peeps dont worry. i'm changing alr. tmr is the turning point. aft tmr. I wont go back to the ways i came from. but i'll go into His buisness:). ok anyways.

pastor shared bout worship is magnifying God and it will build up a confidence. and when u have confidence, u have a clarity of mind:) which means u know right from wrong and u will like make the right choices luh.
and when u life your hands in worship, u are saying. "Lord, i surrender". and when u surrrender, God can fill you:) cuz he filled me . my cup was empty . but he filled it to the brim today and it overflowed. now i'm ready to serve again. ready to engage in His buisness again:) cuz its really awesome man. i'm so touched i want to share this. but wait the the harvest first. cuz its still in the turning point haha. and he also shared like whatever u are in or anything blah blah blah. just worship God . cuz the goliaths of it shall FALL! . ahha sry i lazy type what is the blah blabhh blah. ok basically these are the main points luh. if u nvr come today. sadded luh. but nvm la can ask me. but all i can share is the message. but during worship its really awesome. its really awesome that God talks to you and just touch u:). haha.

tmr morning i going gym with jeremy!! whoo. finally sunday morning cna go gym ok. tonight must sleep early. tmr gym i gonna chiong alr. haha. then tmr gonna follow wanru. cuz my dg so many ppl nvr come.. wah i getting fat sia. keep eating alot.. nvm gonna gym!! ahha. ok tmr need to do my work finish. amaths i like nvr do sia.. chem also nvr do.. piang eh! . haha ok i shaldnt dota .. wait i feel like it.. should i or should i not . ok i should!! haha bye ! gona use tinker!!


ok i want to blog bout this line: whats meant to be is meant to be.
cuz alot of ur think its 'fate' but. theres no such thing as fate
theres onli God's plan. and whatever happens will happen and it will not surprised God for he is God. if u think it surprise him. then u call him God for what sia?! got sense right?
so whats meant to be is meant to be just means that whatever happens God plans for it for even a challenge or a problem can grow u. for it has grown me once i got the meaning of whats meant to be is meant to be.
'stop delluding urself and face reality.' thats what i always heard and i agree. so if ur have probs. just do that can le:).


haha its this date again. thought every 20th and 31 i'll be sad. but mei yo! cuz its gone alr yo. alvin has moved on ! now alvin is changing to a better alvin. things improved alot for me alr. now its just church that i've to face up to. while sch. tsk tsk. so fun! haha.

man move on yo. stop wasting time anymore. its like best to move on cuz look at me now. like i was down then super down then super super down then aft i choose to move up . booom!! jesus lifted me up then now v happy. i just found out what does a stalker means:) ahah. jy girl. move on!. this two dates wont bother me again cuz the date 20th is v important to me:) smart ppl ur will know y.

oya!!! INVITING ALL GUYS TO A TOPMAN SHOPPING IN THE MONTH OF APRIL!!! 20% discount!!! WHO WAN COME PLZ TELL ME:))


alrights!! i healed yo! my 'sickness' is gone alr. i aint sad anymore bout the past.cuz like in the past, somethings that happen will make me sad. but in the present the same things that happen did not make me sad. but it just makes me like. tsk tsk. haha. ok

today sch was awesome! morning got house captain election then just keep talking with lukas. then aft that was bio. then i was talking to bryan ahah. me and him ok alr. so fast sia. grace grace:). then had ss. ss now so easy. learn the korean war something something. alamak north koreans are idiots yo! ... they think they can win south korean then they go war. dumb ppl.. south koreans all the bboys and Jesus filled ppl. how can they not win ! haha. then had physics. teacher tell us that our OA next week. omg la. i like scared i blur blur again. cuz today the pratical i blur blur then i minus 3 marks.. i hope i get full marks for spa:) { happen once:) } . then had recess then chem. ms quek voice like dead man. She'll be healed amen! now chem i lost alr..wait.. almost all subjects i lost.. cuz i lazy .. nvm Jesus will help me! aft my competition then i chiong studies lo. haha. damm funny bryan tell me say arthur say will win him in final year(o level) . then he added that arthur cant win him cuz he failed one. and say if i tell him i will win him, i can . not bad right?:) but its grace grace that i'm smart man. but just that i'm lazy.. gotta buck up soon. wait la chillax. i got a competition to get ready for.

ok then aft sch. praveen come my class. then we clean up the calss tgt :) not bad uh. then we walked to sch gate. then praveen was like grabbing kenneth cuz we disturb him. then andrew tan come. GG MAN! praveen kena from andrew tan. then die lo. then we walk on. i saw arthur. he didnt go sch today but he went for HIHS investiture. then i asked him to give me councillor tie. then he gave me!! WHOOO i got a councillor tie. the tie nice lo. so i'm keeping it:). then we went lan to train. omg man. i dunno y i even bother training for a game ... like damm no life sia.. but no choice.. i dont wan go home cuz my mom at home. then i go out lo. then now i am at home! not bad luh.

addicted to the song -dead and gone. nice song.:) cuz its kinda true for me. tmr is saturday... dunno if i should go dare.. but i confirm not serving.. dare or heart of god.. dare? heart of god? i dunno.. but i meeting someone earlier first for something:) hehe. sianz lei .. i promised benny i will go heart of god alr. but like i abit dun wan go sia.. but if i go dare i aft dare dont wan go level meeting.. cuz 1)i dont wan study with so many ppl now.. cuz i still facing some issues with people.. 2) confirm v sianz one..
rockets confirm go level meeting one.. so i dont think i going there. heart of god 5 start.. think i'll be going there for once. alrights:) i know what to do alr. i'll tell my mother for approval:) .sighed. feel like training now. .. alrights! i'll do it . bye bye!

woah. v bored and i decided to blog:)
so bored until i can go click here click there find ppl blog . then i found alot of radical's ppl one. wah 3 of them born on the 21st sia but not same month luh. feel v blessed aft listening to pastor sermon. i like addicted to this sermon ' The secret of delieverance from self'. blessed me alot cuz i was relying on my self effort. but today like change liao lo. tmr think got trng for the competition.. but i hope like my attitude when i play wont be like the past.. cuz i'm really changing. andrew!! help me change my blog song can?:) haha.

i dont understand the sermon properly cuz i was doing other stuff but listening at the same time:). sianz man. i onli can rmb two things plus plus. 1) my identity is known by God cuz God judge my identity with Jesus identity instead of mine cuz He died for me at the cross and the divine exchange took place. so as He is so am i lo:).2) i'm above the S.U.N and in the S.O.N. means like set apart luh. 3) talk something bout Joseph and Jesus . forget what he say but something similar with them ba. yea! that all i guess.

oww.. my shoulder pain sia.. ytd larry teach some sliding thingy. then i slide until shoulder bruise/abbrasion/something something. but nvm Jesus heals! AMEN!!!. i hope tmr muscle ache will be limited:) cuz i think i overtrained again... nvm pia pia pia!! but supernaturally yo!

ok i'm bored of blogging le . bye bye


ok today i feel damm demoted man.. morning sch then 1st period pe and pe today is gym... damm sad.. the weights i do may seem good to other ppl but to me it sucked...sigh.. but didnt go up to standard for bench press.. like scared to put higher weights alr.. nvm i'll take it slow. endurance training now. no more power. cuz fiq tell me endurance is build lean and defined . (i think) wah but my neh neh still pain sia.. over trained alr.. nvm . pia pia pia is the key!. now focus on training then bboy. studies is a normal thing..

WAH SIANZ LEI!! i fail amaths test sia. kena suan by ben ben and lukas.... cuz i say i will get a1:) then nvr.. sad right?i got 16/40.but nvm nvm . test onli. need jy can alr. today quite ok day. cuz talked alot to ppl. and i found out that cz is matured lol. he'll be my new good friend. haha. oya. today bryan like i got prob with him man.. i trying do 80 then he say wrong .. u cant do it this way u train wrongly.. then i walk away go do otehr thing. then he come to me and say alvin u train wrongly alr. i know its correct cuz andy , malek say so. and plus i read up. then i tell him: shudap. then he attitude me whole day. wah lao eh. but ei today good ok. like 1-3 vulgarites only. dont say the tu lei lo mo la. that one anyone use to bomb mr singh. cuz he dunno ma haha.

but its ok man. jesus loves me:). stalker u ok ma? dont worry lei.. hui hui.u gotta like sort things out with urself yo. stop wasting time. 1 year liao. if still have for 1.5 months. i dont talk to u liao.
alvin. u ok ma? u now crazy one lei.

wah sianz lei... i now like really crazy lo. i have no more goals man.. i dunno what to aim for now man... all i know is aft the e -gamging competition then i chiong study. ehh if ur peeps wan me study. jio me study wif ur k?:) cuz i now wont studdy one.. now all i know is i wanna train and get right with God. other then that .. no goals.. bboying like i lost windmills.. damm sad ...

me and sara ok alr so u peeps dont worry .. me changing for the better now. so dont worry also:)
cuz i've been travling on this road to long,i've tring to find my way back home and the old me is dead and gone.



alrights peeps. alvin has changed alot from the time he was in church. the first time he was a tooth tooth one. then 2nd he changed to a stuck up shit.( he was hated by ppl then). then 3rd he changed to a better person(where u guys liked). 4th he becomes crazy. like a retard. like vicent turning into chaos. ( sry luh i really like ff7!! its nice la!). then 5th(grace grace:)) he changed to a better person. (better then the 3rd).
5th he is shaping to it soon. a new alvin which is better. cuz he will be full of jesus once he get right with God:) amen! it will happen!. oya today i cut alot vulgarties sia! (except time in lan, wait i nvr scold vaulgarities. i just insult) haha. i just needa get some stuff fixed and i'm all good. He has the parts to fix me and he will! its all gone better. thank you to ; sara(u fix stuff with me), drew( u tank all my scoldings and still talk to me), bobbie( u tell me whats going on), paul( u shephard me), eh ..stalker( u stand by me), bryan( u talk sense to me), kenneth ( u cheered me up), and most importantly, Jesus( u shown me the light and gave up ur life for me:) i love you , cuz u first love me . )
give me more time.


today i'm just full of smiles:):):)

its all finish at the cross yo. He fought it for me yea!.
today i go sch then sianz sianz one. then talk to kenneth and lukas then during mass workout i suddenly wan to form dota team for the e-gaming challenge in my sch in march. cuz got one damm pro team-javier team . so i form to play for fun but js wanna win . so like that luh. took me quite a while to get the team and now its ; me , js, praveen, hong yeen and lukas. (i hope lukas dont feed):) then we had lessons which were boring.. cuz chem no teacher again..(i hope miss quek is ok) then i and js talk alot and discuss haha. and we got the team and our draft. then cheena had test. damm it la.. i copied alot.. then teacher suddenly say she wan to see my standard.. then i earse all my answer and really go and do it. and i hoped i pass.. i feel like a bastard cuz i skipped chinese remedial today.. i fell damm bad cuz she really wants to help me improve... nvm la.next time i will go AMEN!!!

then had recess then english(teacher damm kp) but nvm i see kenneth argue with jian wei untill dam funny. sigh.. jian wei and kenneth y must ur like that... i like that must sure side kenneth one ma.. how help u sia.. nvm la.. JESUS handle it:) amen!. then aft that was maths(DAMM BORING) then had bio!! whoo i got back test results :) i aimed 27/35 and i got 26/35 !#$@%#@$# !! but hehe i made 'ammendments' and got 27/35!! WHOO A1!!! haha. praise JESUS!! then sch ended.

i went bubble tea shop with js, praveen, kenneth then ivan came and took js away for awhile. and later i follow js awhile. haha. then we head to lan aft hong yeen , arthur and lukas came.

we like no life huh haha. cuz we preparing for competition ma. haha. nvm la . ur wan say i no life then no life lo. i got Jesus yo. aint need ur acceptance:). then played 2 games 1 win 1 lose. hong yeen is damm pro.. but nvm la bottom line he is still my team mate. i formed this team. but js need to be the ldr cuz if i ldr i confirm scold alot one..and i dunno how draft;( haha.

nvm . then i went to orchard to sit in for larry's class.. and he asked me to join him sia!! damm nice la. free classs !! THANK YOU LARRY!! suppose i didnt wanna dance today.. its just that i dont wanna go home.. then larry took me in luh. my neh neh pain.. plus shoulder bruise and morning got cold.. so didnt wanna dance.. but still dance haha. cool!! i can ic ice:) i really respect larry alot man. aft my o's i going break with larry as much as i can. damm la he say i deprove alot hah. cuz i nvr train..

then i went home with arthur. thank you for following me home arthur:). tmr got pe!! and its gym sia!! dunno shld be happy or sad.. cuz neh neh pain.. then how train sia.. somemore i plan tmr chiong like one retard liao!! nvm i listen winston ; to just pia! . pray that Jesus will heal it fast and let me pia tmr:). hope tmr get back amaths test too.

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super happy that things are ok for me alr. dunno bout u but its ur life. i can be there for u when u need me but bottom line its ur stuff yo. so u needa get things right wif u first. u really changed. u're crazy now gal. ahha.
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i'm recovering fast. but its just that i dunno how to face ppl bout it le. and i'm sorry drew that i hurt u (if i did) but nvm la. tks for ur help yo. all i wanna do now is... i dunno! haha. maybe train ? ahah see first luh. no goals now... sadded... nvm. Jesus will give me goals! amen!.

wah today damm shiok sia. i tried a little' magic' :) not bad uh. tks for giving it to me. i wanna try the real thing. then i stop liao. not bad luh. just my throat pain now.. sianz. nvm la. ok i gonna zz now cuz i'm tired. haah super muscle ache luh !


i seriously thought today will be ok alr.. but im lost. i'm really lost.. i'm a burden to you all my friends. i'm sorry i was every ur friend.. and now u must be worried for me .. i'm sorry ... i wont die over this. its not worth it.. i just wanna cry this heart out.. its seriously so painful for me to see u said those words. u know i'm not in sanity now. bryan told me to let him handle it and he got nailed by me.. i'm sorry bro.. i'm just insane now.. u know i'll anyhow think de u know me well. i dont have any assurance for anything now. all i know is my identity is approved by God cuz he onli approves Jesus's identity and as Jesus is so am i in this world. therefore my identity is approved through christ.. thats all i really know now.,..


ha.. today was a better day. i cutted down on vulgarities:) its improving for me now. sigh. my day was awesome i played alot in class. aft sch go gym . wah shiok sia. now dont feel like blogging much cuz i juz read something. ha...

i'll stop interfering with ur life.. cuz u disappointed me today... one minute u say u wan give up on him.. next minute u say wah i see him today then v happy. like wtf man... u made me super sad today... i was actually really really like ok alr... like wtf man... 1st it was my bro who pulled my mood down. now its u. THE WORLD IS AGAINST ME!! FUCK U WORLD!!
u made my day today... seriously...

now i no mood to do anything alr.. tmr not going say liang .. cuz 1) no mood 2) muscle ache..

i'm real sorry i failed to give u the happyness u have now.. i'm sorry i failed u. i failed myself. i'm sorry i changed into this alvin i know not of.. i'm tired of this.. i wanted to make things right ... but .. nvm.. its gone for me . drew/**** *** won u .. i'm a failure. sorry..

This is the clock up on the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a new born child before he starts to crawl

This is the war that's never won
This is the soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone praying for her son

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

Wo-oah

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab just waiting for the call

This earthquake weather has got me shaking
Inside I'm high up and dry

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

Confess to me
Every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believe

Confess to me
All that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win no matter how hard we must swing

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Hung up on your wall for the world to see

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
What could have been
We could have been

Pictures of you
Pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been
What could have been

hey ur all wan help me loser right? just do ur part by forgetting me and removing me from ur pigment of ur memory. i know i will lose precious friends.. but its the best and brightest way out of my situation now.

fuck u la. u not happy with me come wack me la. kill me even better. chao ni ma la. u dont even know the full story still wan kp. now still fucking spam my inbox. think damm nice uh?. na bei. book no page then no page la. good actor then good actor la. u like another lukas. onli know how to fucking condem me. i WILL NEVER BE LIKE U. think i wan be like u ? sae i going ur route. pui ar cb. loser then loser la. hate me plz. thats all i can say. even more better. do hate me, it will help my plans. dear bro ar? pui ar. its all fucking screw up. i screw up my own life. . .
na bei put once cbox then now so noisy... aiya u wan help me right? hate me. and dont ever rmb me
all u got to say is God bless. Lan jiao la. talk until so much spam spam spam spam spam.
hmmm now cuz of u, i'll confirm my decision. cuz u are just another lukas.. cb ..
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tks for everything u are doing but get things right first. dont act on ur emotions. think first before u act. thats what i've learnt

it was easy to change my mind BEFORE. but now. NO man. NOTHING can change my mind now. and i promised u that. i'm an asshole, loser, dumbo, whatever.. u peeps wanna say what then so be it. to me this insults are nothing. my heart turned black alr. its gone darker. its nobody but myself doing.
ehh plz luh. u dunno what i going through dont kp lei. wah piang fuck this world man. see my bestfriend taking my .. nvm.... wah the weather damm warm now sia. fuck the blacks! burn burn burn.. burn forest fun meh? nvm...

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oya.. ur dont anyhow jump to conclusion lei
who the FUCK sae i not going church? who say i quiting?


today sch was fun ahha. had bio test and i copied lukas for some parts. but he also got copy me haha. think i can get 27/35. amen! then had chem, no teacher came and somehow i was pissed today.. then english period the teacher change our class sitting place.. then i was sitting 2nd row. then now sit 4th row.like sianz la.. 4th row sia.. but nvm la still can see. heng i nvr sit with losers. (wait i am one right drew?) then teacher put me with bryan and say i help him with maths. fuck u la. we both maths a1 still need help each other . lol sia.. then infront of us was porn tay and ashley. ahha. then i joined porn tay 'clan' today. ahah cuz they funny ar. but i anything one luh. bryan and porn tay helped me alot but i dunno what to do. but thank you and thank God:)

ok then aft that physics, maths, cheena all damm boring.. then today got photo taking.. sai suai sia.. my hair like one cock .. nvm... next time need pic just go take again luh.. then went monfort jr buy food. then go amaths class. shiok sia bodoh. learn the product and quotient rule and ate alot. fuck u lukas. tell the hy my prob. think tell him can slove alot things ar? but nvm luh. had fun anyways.. aft amaths i went to take 147 to potong pasir. damm pissed... i go upstairs.. then got small xin min sec kids talk damm loud.. cb sia feel like shouting and whacking them.. cuz i was listening to sermon then they fucking spoil my mood.. if i see them i confirm shout..

then i ended up at home luh..

today was seriously weird ... didnt even talk to arthur or lukas much. onli to bryan alot. my heart is turning blacker and blacker each day. i dont wan this.. but yet i wan this cuz it can subside my pain and hate. i know what to do now. its all making perfect sense to me now. he talked to me and HE confirmed it.


breakout was damm awesome haha.!! i dunno y i post lol.. i watched it on v day. its so awesome:) i hope they come again. i love them man. they inspire me to dance for Him yo.! cool man.
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sianz la. i no mood study bio ahha. tmr test gonna copy lukas. i confirm fail one haha. the sex chapter maybe will pass. the genetics confirm fail one ..lj sia..


ALRIGHTS!!! praise daddy yo! all is going as my plans:) .

ty all of u peeps for making my day today.-sara, wanru, amos, matthias, joel, javis, andrew, bobbie,yy.i'll miss u guys

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today was awesome yo.
morning i woke up 7.25 then go back sleep cuz tired.. then i woke up at 10am.. omg man im late ahha. but dont care la. i took my time to prepare then i had a bad hair day. nnm!!. then meimei say my back hair look like wolverine. lol sia.. nvm i shall cut my hair soon.. cant take the length liao.. dunno what to do with it ahha.
ok then i go suntec that time all the trains, bus all come smoothly:)
aft that met up with wanru and sara at arcade. then we wanted to take ticket but nvr then we go to eat pepper lunch. wah cb sia my money fly like free.. nvm la last day so enjoy lol haha. thank God i brought enough money:).
then amos came along. and aft lunch they follow me go bugis to find breaking dawn.. but no stock FUCK THEM YO!! haris have stock they dont have.. then i go haris buy ecplise. next week i go try find breaking dawn there again.. if dont have i go haris buy... bo bian.. oya thank you mei for giving me new moon:) . now i got book 1,2,3 le. 1 more to go and complete. oya ur book condition damm bad haha. must take care of books k?:)

then aft that we went arcade and play bishy bashy and bball haha. wah my standard deprove haha.. then go service lo. we sat like this. sara, wanru, gid sng, me, amos, matthias.
then behing us was reuel... sigh..
then aft svc go play arcade... i play 2 bishy bashys and 1 hod4. sigh. u peeps had fun with me yea?:) hope the fun will last in memories within the walls of ur heart. javis , i've trained u well. jy man. then me i deproved ahah. but still made it to last stage. na bei.. my score is b,a,a,a,c at least give me all a la haha. i sucked man.. nvm.. next time i play again i either solo or play with jeremy, my partner. ahah.

ok then aft arcade we go eat fondue lol. had fun la. quite nice.. sara wasted money luh.. eat so little haha. then aft fondue . rockets ppl left. and me wanru sara go take cab. i paid $4 haha. me and sara cab to dhoby. then she go home. ty sara:) wah the driver fucked up sia. i tell him dhoby then dover he say dont wan then we zao le then he say dhoby then dover ar? come come . lj sia. nvm.. then wanru left and cab alone haha.
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today was seriously a dope day for me. pastor sermon was awesome. the 3 stories i'll go study again. cuz its really dope. i'll expect my 100fold back. and it'll be awesome. :) i'll keep sowing in the time of famine and i'll reap a bountiful harvest:) amen!
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bye all my hommies and friends.
love u peeps alot. damm sad i have to ... nvm. bobbie. even though u are my nephew. u will always be my kor:) i love u bro. tks for everything. must jio me go out k:)?
i seriously will miss u all man... thank god i ended almost everything here.
the peeps ill miss most is, drew(nephew), joel (bro), javis(bro),bobbie(kor), yy(bro), amos(bro), gillian(bestfriend), wanru(meimei),sara(memories).. yea and the one that i'll miss the most of all is huihui.. i cant bear to part with u... u're my heorin ...
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going for my goals now. :) its al bout Jesus now. leaving what little i've in his hands forever.
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today i just found out.. my heart just turned black. its cold and black. a nice place where i want it to be. no wonder i can stand cold weathers:). sighed.. i want my ff series!!!.
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huihui. go listen right now by akon.
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Girl I know mistakes were made between us two
And we show our eyes that night
Even said somethings weren't true
Why'd you go and haven't seen my girl since then
Why can't it be the way it was?
Cos you were my homie, lover and friend

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na
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DONT MISSS ME:)


This will be the most important post to you:

i want sleep now but i cant.. so i did what i always do if i cant sleep... then now secretly on com blog cuz i think u wanna know the reason too

its simply this; cuz u broke cuz u like him... or scared u like him . whatever.. if u that time like me alot u wont even think of that. u didnt even tell me at that time. like wtf? recently then u tell me. then now u give me like hope yet false hope.. dunno dun care.. cuz even if u give hope. nnm.. think got chance meh? u like him SO much lei... some lucky bastard he is... do what u want. u broke my heart once, twice, thrice, quads, etc etc.. so many times until it cannot be counted.. and i give u chances once, twice, thrice, quads, etc etc.. so many chance until i cannot give alr..

all i can say is just good luck with him.... hope u guys love life wont even up as urs. cuz it just simply SUCK!.

all i ever want is just to hear; i love you again....

its all over... sephi will come soon.. i want to be a remnant of him... like kadaj...


felt v weird today.. and u say u will feel weird like 'uh?'

u say today will be the last time we go out together alone. thats damm sad...and heart breaking... cuz today SUCK ! if not for breakout.. alot of things that wouldn't need to be said will be said. all the #@$^%!@^&%&^@%$!^&@#%.... nvm.
i dunno wtf u wan alr la... i give u so many chances liao... what u do like shows u care and some stuff i dunno. i tell u ar i v blur with this signs one. last time my dg give me alot signs i alll blur blur.. then i knew it when they told me. and i've change to be a better person. now im changing and i want to change to sephiroth. :)
aiya sianz la.. hope u were mine again.. but nvm .. i just give up. i gave u more then 8 chances alr... and 8stands for new beginnings.. doubt we will have our new beginnings.. u like him more then me.. so what can i do? i cant tell him to fuck off can i? cuz u will slap me and i dont even know him.. how can i sae it to him...
sigh.. its so stupid... i thought the sound right now suck... but come to think of it... its good cuz its suits my situation... its impossible to every get u back cuz u are like the snow that will nvr come to singapore.. and we wont have a chance to go out together again. sigh. i dont wanna say it. . i have enough girl.. i'm tired of fussin and fightin. its been fucking 45 days.. and 45 days ago.. i thought 45 days later will be the day i will get u back. but fuck it. i dont. Light will rebirth to sephi soon.. i hope that day come faster. in the mean time. i gotta gain strength and wisdom to act..

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actually i didnt want to go today.. cuz u dont want to go alr... but then all my bros say just go la. i've nothing to lose. and guess what i lose? nothing.. all cause my bro arranged every thing and persuaded me to do it..
we were tore apart cuz u gave them the chance..


Valentines day.~ wonder what vincent valentine will do today. haha. kidding.

how i wish i was sephiroth... it would be so much better..
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Today was a good day haha.
morning wake up take my time to prepare.. haha not really luh. played 1 game dota then go prepare .. then i rushed and think what should i wear.. cant decide so just wore jap+mud+alvin haha. ALVIN STEP SIOA!!
went to suntec to buy some stuff then i go walk walk waste time cuz i was early.
suppose to meet at mrt then i walked from convention to convention again.. haha..
met up le then go watch breakout:)!!!.
DOPE MAN !!! BREAK OUT!! damm funny. and damm cool. see thier power moves alr damm dope luh!. got one scene at the church one made me touched la. and it gave me the inspirtaion to dance for Jesus. it was like damm cool man! i'm gonna start training my mills now:).
their beatboxers and the 'perveted' popper was dope. and near the end then i found out that 'last for one' was the crew creating breakout. DOPE CREW LA!!! Jesus , use them to shine ur light man!.
then aft breakout. got a free cab ride to city hall. TY:) not for u. i'll be late luh. when u drop me off . my friends just came .
js , praveen, lukas , arthur , and one sec 2 boy, brexton came to play lan.. woah man.. didn't expect to go lan cuz i planned my day for u.. but nvm.. then we play 1.5 hours. i won both games but no shiokness cuz no jesus there.
aft that i go home with lukas . and he was suppose to consoul me .. but he condemm me. FUCK U! . i know what i do wrong le la. just dont do it again ... damm du lan one u know?. nvm.. over le..
then i went home luh . haha. then got black pepper crab eat. SHIOK SIA!! v long nvr eat crab le..

i found out my dreams today.
1) to dance for Jesus
2) to be like sephiroth.(unlikey to happen . but nice uh)

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It's been so long
That I haven't seen your face
I'm tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away

It wont be long
Before I get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

Girl I know mistakes were made between us two
And we show our eyes that night
Even said somethings weren't true
Why'd you go and haven't seen my girl since then
Why can't it be the way it was?
Cos you were my homie, lover and friend

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much

I miss you much
I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much
I miss you much

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I want you to fly with me
Want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
Miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
Wish you could dine
One that would grind with me
One that would grind with me

I want you to fly with me
Want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
Miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
Wish you could dine
One that would grind with me
One that would grind

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na
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wanted to put thunder.. put that cant happen...its impossible to happen.. cuz its like waiting for Singapore to snow.. which is like wtf?


each day passes and i feel that i am a different person. haha dunno good or bad way but nvm la haha..
today morning i see everyone mugging for bio test.. dicks.. i onli study chap 14.. no time for 15.. so just heck care. then teacehr say post phone test. lol. i dunno should i be happy or not. but ok la sunday still can study haha.
ss was ok .. teacher nvr talk so much funny stuff.. sigh. then physics! teacher give back the spa.. then my reg number was2 so i should be gettting it 2nd.. but i got it 2nd from the last.. lol wait damm long sia... then i get my spa back.. and i got 10/10! praise God Rite? if i get it for o levels. i'll be damm happy la. 2grades up lei.. but o level is /15 de.. so i'll get 15/15 amen! . then i go recess. then aft recess was chem.. chem teacher say v disappointing.. and i was disappointed too lol... she gave us our results and i got 22/30. actually quite good. but 0.5 more marks get a1 . nvm la. i nvr study that hard. REALLY thank God for all the wonderful results haha. cuz i used my results to get me to go out more haha. and i suceeded. !:)

aft sch i nvr go ice skating cause my mom last minute then tell me i can go ice skating .. sigh.. then i wanted to buy some stuff.. then lukas they all wan go lan . and tell me if i go lan they folo me buy my stuff so i followed. then me arthur praveen and lukas play at the lan while kenneth played from home. lol sia..i kena owned.. then lukas suddenly proud. but nvm la. he once in a while win onli.. monday sure ok one. confirm.
then i go home watch Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children then i go prepare go sch for the o level talk shit. then i wasn't late:) thank God. then the vp and p talk alot. then i found out sajc is 9 point! WTF MAN. nvm la i getting 7points anws:). i wan try dsa in sajc by dance sia.. but now i forget how do windmills alr.. nama!. then i took a cab down to dg.. and guess what.. they haven start.. means i not late. lj sia waste my $7... then coach talk bout the heart and relationships stuff.. then he keep looking at me when he say that.. dunno what la. but nvm la. Jesus is here with me yo.! AMEN! then went lan with drew javis bobbie and roy.. wtf sia they say they play dota then play some zombie game.. then i go play bnet alone.. nama... waste money and time. i rather go home sleep one lo...
so i ended up home liao.. wah gotta stop dotaing man... its a fucked up game...that makes ppl angry. haha... JESUS U TAKE THE WHEEL!

oya ivan from 4e1. prepare my $500 next year man. start saving up now dick. rmb the bet.. that if i get less then 7 points or 7points. $500 mine yo. start saving up kid. hope this will teach u a lesson:). e1 dua meh? no lei .. i show u e2 can pwn e1 . cuz i have JESUS:).

tmr going break out!! WHOO DOPE BBOYS!! I think gamblers crew performing haha. i prepare alot money in case i pok kia haha.:).
sup man. dont feel weird or anything yo. friend friend onli:). k lets just enjoy it . :) oya i found out what u wan me found out alr. so dont worry:).

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Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
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wanted to post this ytd but i was too lazy to get online haha.


Alrights. today... damm fun and damm crazy..
today pe i was damm ps to go do weights cuz got alot ppl. then gabriel started to do bench press ,7.5kg each side. then aft that i do. then not pai seh alr. then i started going crazy and keep adding 2.5kg to each side until i finish my 4sets. was freaking crazy man. 32 kg bench press!! new accomplishment:) but gotta get it till 40kg then im satisfied. then i did many things and do leg. then kenneth saw my weights i do then he was like wtf? so he say jio him next time i go gym haha. awesome:) got new ppl following me. then aft pe i starting going even crazier... keep scolding ppl and going emo.. dunno whats wrong with me man.. then i like keep arguing with amos. then i scold him. (tks bro for tanking it.. u helped me alot . i really appreciate it. but u know i really dunno what to do man.. damm jealous of u la. i ask so many times then u ask 1 time then settle liao...)... then history was fun. Mr Singh taught us life skills haha. then english the pb teacher nvr give our test paper back again and somemore scold lukas.. nnm..

then sch suppose end 3.30 but i left at 1.45 cuz i got dental. 1.45-2.20 was ss but it was cancelled then 2.20-3.30 was amaths but i took the test ytd so can le:). then i go home change cuz i my shirt smelly and wet... i forget bring extra shirt and towel.. stupid me.. next thrusday pe again:) gym somemore:)) so i sure bring extra shirt and towel de haha. then i went to outram to meet gillian. lol i alight mrt i saw a chij girl then i dunno it was gillian. then i sit down call amos talk talk. then see 3.30 le then i call gillian then she was that chij girl haha. i thought her uni green de lor. so funny! then she followed me to dental(thank you:)) then i followed her to kemembagen or something like that. then i go pasir ris meet amos and talk.. wah i seriously dunno what to buy man.. some more so many ppl then i ps buy so i left.. then i seriously cant take amos seriously .. he like joker sia.. dunno when he serious or not.. damm dumb sia.. but nvm jesus loves u:). then i go take bus home liao lo.

oya today have ss test also ahha. i anyhow do cuz wasnt in the mood..

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i know i should be happy liao. but got some things we havent clear.. then i scared we hard talk sia.. talk to me more man. i gotta like know some stuff yet i dunno what i need to know haha. nvm ba. we just enjoy ourselves lo...................................

tmr going ice skating !! then maybe dont wan go dg. see how first luh... most prob going.. should i or should i not? hmmmmm. see how first luh.

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Everybody's hurt somebody before.
Everybody's been wound by somebody before.
You can change , but you'll always come back for more.
Its a game and we're all just victims of love.
Dont try to fight it.
VICTIMS OF LOVE...


11FEB

woah. ytd was awesome i guess.. cant rmb what happen ytd. but i made someone sad.. sorry man.. find it quite true so i said it...
ytd had mass workout and i was happly using phone all the way. then i missed half of chem but i finish the prac..
had chinese and teacher still say i will fail. tmd... i show u Jesus can make me get A2 ok.! then enlish teacher nvr give back paper..
aft sch i went take amaths test.. OMG MAN!!! i look at test paper i gong alr. like wtf man so hard cuz A Loh(PhD maths) set one.. then i just do lor. then like quite ok la. sure pass one. i hope i get A1:)haha
aft that i went pay bulk collection then go esplanade break le. wah say liang teach me windmills. and i got it:) amen! just need improve and practise. haha. so yea needa work harder. ty man for helping me all the while. i'll learn handstand soon:).
then aft breaking i made a new friend, dexter. from st pats. he dunno joshua sia. somemore he sec5. haha. so we talk while we go mrt station. then my leg damm pain liao.. so i went home zzz then lazy blog haha


too lazy to blog.. tmr then i blog... ai.. its the fact la. so long le still where got false sia.. nvm ur choice yo.. oyea tmr dental appointment. confirm kena scolding for poor oral hygiene.. cuz my brush broke then hard brush properly..


today no mood blog.. cuz of one pundtard... nvm.... gonna do this in point form
.sch was fun till 12nn cuz all the funny period and wars by porn tay and lukas
.12nn till 3 damm boring.. cuz i feel like sleeping. sry mr lee.
.i go hall break awhile till4 then go lukas house take stuff to swim.
. swam till 6 and went off. lukas ask me wash the trunks but i beg him. then he say i owe him favour, then he walk on the street then i pulled him back cuz a van drove past and almost bang him. so i no owe favour le.;)
.went home do what i have to do. and the end.
.dumb day.. cuz of that pundtard... make up ur mind la ...nvm i shall not sae bout that pundtard.. cuz it just spoils my mood...
.mei dont emo le la.. tell me whats going on yo...


i'm in a place of darkness where all i can see is firey brimmstones surronding every corner of my eyes. they are burning me every single second... these fires seem familiar. They are like whips of fire burning me every second. i've been through this pain before. and i dont wan to go through this again....so...
just tell me what u wan know.. i can easily get this fires burned out cuz there's a light there. and my bros are behind me in this. you wan do what just do. what can i do or sae? wait ... i can say this...

SCREW OFF PUNDTARD!


let me tell u the meanings of all again for you.

This what its means to me

When You were mine ----when u were mine..
You know--- you know..

We Had It all infront of us--- everything was infront of us
You were the one i was in love---you were the one i was in love
But You always hurt the one you lost--- u hurt me badly
But i couldnt get enough--- i just cant leave u

You were everything thats bad for me--- you not perfect but u were everything to me
Make no apologies---- dont say sorry le la. damm sianz one lei
I'm crushed black and blue---i'm deeply in love with u
But you know i'll do it all again for you--- i'll do whatever it takes to just win ur heart back cuz i love you.

This the chorus and i think means like that. ahah.

but the whole song nice lor. it means like a couple break up then the guy cant get over the girl cuz he really likes her alot and he is willing to do anything to get her back. and even though they cant be together. he still loves her alot cuz he keep thinking bout the memories they shared and he rather have those painful memories rather then what they are now. basically. a love song bout how the guy really likes the girl . yea.

the song suit my situation hor? but no man. now more better lo. cuz last time more pain. but i rather now. and much closer until yea u know. haha. dont anyhow think hor. wan know come ask me.

this song stuck in my head lol


alrights i cd alr.. dota is bad for ur health.. i play until too intense le.. nvm.. Jesus help me dont play at all. maybe once a week? yea. thats good:). cuz schedule like damm busy now. but its like crap man.. cuz i get to do stuff i dont wan lol...

today morning damm sianz.... like one emo kia... then later i talked alot with lukas then now he wan go ice skating alr. he sae he cant wait. haha. woah arthur seems like a pro ice skater. well we 'll see him on the ice then. then got alot boring subjects.. and i started worrying i not getting 7points le.. czu the bloddy sushi tell me i will fail chinese and sae i go clb better.. but nvm i do normal chinese and shine God's light:) cuz i know i can do it with Him yo. then recess the js cute sia. he dont wan eat the egg yolk then tell me u need egg yolk for body building. so he give me... tks anyways:) but i dont wanna body build.. so buff look like one idiot like that.. no offence to wen song or malek man. u guys are dope.

then later i got back maths paper.. expected marks le cuz teacher tell me liao.. starting to feel v proud and vulgar. but nvm Jesus will help me!!!:) oyea! Jesus is awesome and u fucktards still wanna like anti him? for nuts man? He loves u all still. no condemnation!. then today amaths teacher teach alot sia.. but no kick . small fry small fry. cuz Jesus help me. know i gotta do a little bit day by day then can le. oyea physics damm sian... i go class i wann zzz alr. but nvm i got listen abit. what echolation or sth . ahah.

then i slack slack awhile go home , play 1 game dota. then some puntard pissed me off then i ate dinner , swolled a fish bone.. and its stick stuck now. then now blog .:) ahah.

I NEED HELP WITH CHINESE !!! MY BALLS MAN!! I WAN GO SAJC!!! AMEN I CAN MAKE IT:)) LUKAS ALSO CAN.(onli if we help each other out) yea. then can le.

wah lao ... today twinnie really copy me sia..; both siao siao liao. her clique today funny. and my clique today funny also. nvm Jesus still loves you:) go listen the song All Again For You by We The Kings.. damm nice.dont worry man Jesus will restore :) he done it for me and he can do it for u. dont believe, wait for next monday. then ok le. ask me y? i dunno. somethin in me just tells me so haah.

today porn tay and kenneth damm funny. then i chinese class anyhow bomb words and throw book haha. damm funny sia!! then vp also i still can say * something something haha. then stuart and brandon tell me vp then i damm scared..but nvm they all deaf one.now school damm fun. :)


wah ... play apem like big like that... small fry nia still wan kp me.. tmd.. nvm. sua. game nia.. haha. later then blog i go dinner 1st


TODAY DAMM BLESSED SIA!!! CHICAKALAGINA!!

ok today i wanted to jog but i lazy wake up.. so i slept on and i take my time prepared and guess what? i wasnt late. haha
i was early cuz sara and jaime late:) . i went macs find wanru at 10.20 then i walk pass coach without noticing him until wanru told me haha. i study halfway i went buy plasters then i go do my amaths hw. isaac john came ahha. he helped me abit but one question he got me damm wrong ahah.. so nvm jesus still loves you:). then sara came then jaime came. sara too rushed until she forgot bring book. then she copied ytd notes cuz she was'sick' :) ahah. we went go take ticket then we met ping pong and this guy called 'handsome' then we go eat pepper lunch. lol. the 3 of them go order food. then they go toilet. i thought i was cooking food for sara but i cooked for jaime instead. suai sara haha. cuz i thought i saw her bag. then i cook nice nice de. so jaime ate it:) blessed right? i cook one sia. then we went arcade play bball, bishy bashy. then the girls went some place and i play house of dead 4 with my partner, jeremy. we owned. damm it man. the boss left 1 dot of hp left and i died.. nnm! nvm. then something happen from 2-4.30. v blessed. and tks best friend gillian for helping me with notes haha.then jaime went home and sara's friend; sharon went off too. so me wanru and sara go sit at mpg. then joshua came with handsome and muk. joshua my bro. the pants dont suit u ahha. change the colour yo. but nvm la. Jesus still loves you:).


ok then later wanru something happen.. dunno what happen .. but nvm all shall be well in JESUS NAME AMEN!!. then me handsome and sara take mrt home. then i went to dover to take taxi home. and just in time i met a cab. i went in and sae dover mrt. then he say he going home to hougang. then i sae can fetch me ? i stay near there. then i sae free can? he say give abit la. then he stop me at serangoon mrt. the fee was like $12 and we agreed on $5.50. AWESOME RIGHT? v blessed lo. somemore in the taxi we talk alot . then i went home . and now updating phone with sermons. V blessed nowadays..

oyea. u know the song i sang today? it was meant for u:) . not the love story ar. cuz that one totally out of the question. Jesus loves twinnie:)


7 feb 2009
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Alrights i blog for ytd today cuz ytd i come home i lazy on com. ahha.
ytd was SUPER SUPER SUPER AWESOME LA!
morning i wake up 10.15. then i thought i will late cuz i v lazy. then i prepare all these reach there 11.55:)) so i went to ambs room and on the mark 12 reach:) praise God wasnt late. ahah.
ps if i morning firece to u . i morning got morning sickness one..sry.
then aft ambs we go have lunch break. nice food:) then aft that go serve. ! fun sia.
then service start le. Praise and Worship was super fun la. ! i feel God's love again. v v nice. then had ministering. i forgot wad excaltly i heard.. but i rmb Him saying, U will be used in this life to shine my life.
Aweome RIGHT?:) Priase God la.
then service was good. and woah... even esther knows.. ahah. but nvm its over. so yea lo. but she funny ar. oya V V V blessed! i get to sit in front sia. so near pastor benjamin.
then service i rmb pastor sae: God wants to piece the hearts of the broken hearted and use them for His purpose. and there was a skit. that really made me teared. but i cried when pastor wan us close our eyes and tell Jesus our cares. It was v blessed for me ytd.! so so loved by Jesus. He's like my heroin man. but i dun nid heroin. i need Jesus:)

then aft service had lvl meeting.. wl i change number nvr tell ppl so nvr bring book. i wan help in maths . no ppl nid help all doing their woirk. so i help 1 guy but sue ann sloved it so thank you:) cuz i dunno how do ahha. then i went with dg go celebrate bobbie bday. we go play bishy bashy and house of dead 4. so aft playing they folo me go top man awhile. WAH LAO !!! I WAN FIND BUCKLE BELT!!! the belt i dunno nice alot.. but nvr buy haha. then aft that we went to city link -New York New York... the food there not sae v nice lor.. waste my money sia,... i rather eat kenny roger the chicken. but nvm la got free candy floss ahah. Drew was retarded. i think cuz the mother wan ru ar ahah. kidding:) but he ordered Giant Yankie Burger and tried the challenge.. i know confirm fail one lo. but i left earlier. then dunno the results. but God bless la. 38.50 gone ahah. nvm Jesus will restore 100fold:)

I'm really v blessed ytd. today i woke up 7.15.. then i wanted go jog.. but i lazy.. so i sleep till 8.30 then wake.. then now gonna prepare go suntec study wif wan ru sara and jaime. sara now still havent wake up lol ahaha. ok i go le bb. JESUS LOVES U ALL!


ok la dont use orange i use this colour lo ...if still cannot.. plz suggest colour for me

today was ok:). go sch then mass workout.. slack slack lo.
so aft that go class room then i thought lukas nvr come... then he go chatolic mass.. nnm...
then i talked to js and jian wei. then all things seemed well alr. tks all my bros for giving me advices. but im gonna leave it to Him yo.

morning is bio.. then wasnt listening.. onli rmb nex friday got test.. nnm... aft bio was ss. ss nice uh. cuz teacher funny!. then aft ss was physics. today had IA-spa.. damm wah piang man. i thought i gged but its so easy.. then the aaron keep want copy me.. haha. so i helped him abit. aft physics was recess. then its was chem... chem had test.. i thought i'll fail cuz i nvr study much.. then the paper come i put 27/30 then i start doing. quite easy luh. i abit blur blur then aft awhile no kick le. so i helped js allittle bit and so yea.

i went home then lukas come my house. we dota abit then he go home then i was nvm... for awhile.. then now i free luh. damm sianz now.. tmr got dare. hope it 'll be awesome..
dresscode is red top and ambs jacket.. red top.. dunno what to wear.. haha...

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I'll stand on my own two feet
Against you girl cuz I just can't walk away
I said, I can't take it that easy
I wanna finish it tonight
Don't wanna waste another day
And it's not over just yet
Give me this one last fighting chance
To crash the wall ,i'll get to you
You are a war worth dying for. Tonight!
Give me this one last fighting chance
To be the kid who caved you in
It'd be so easy to lose myself to you.
Quiet! I will be So sure
I think you lost ur will to fight..
And you know I'll storm
Through your castles doors
Cause you know that i'm good for u
And you're scared of what you'll find: a love u wont regret.
So open up to me,
And let me be the kill you're missing
Don't close ur eyes until this is over
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I jux wanna love u again.. so give me this one last chance to get u back from that hobo..