What's meant to be is meant to be
Sunday, November 15, 2009
maybe its time for the line to be drawn. maybe its time for us to have an ending. maybe its time for this ending to be a happy/sad one. maybe this happy/sad feeling will last according to what was planned.
well. this feeling is what im going through. and i dont wan it no more. i wan to know Him more, i wanna glorify Him with every beat of my heart. Its all for Him and none of me cuz the flesh can bear no fruit. I'm forgiven. Restoration is mine. the time 'lost' will be restored! this short 2 months holiday i have. plans; work to earn 200 in 2 weeks. dance! bball. and most importantly, draw from the word of life! friends. a good word to describe companions. some made me feel so infidel. well others are joys to be with. i would like to keep all and spend time with all of them. but looking at it now. its impossible. sch; hopefully we can hang and chill , movies or stayover or www. at least once. church ; complex. love the bros God placed with me.
Help me in my everything lord. for U are my everything. a clear line will be drawn. impossibilities will be crushed for God is the God of impossibilities. I will fear God because of His finished work. and i thank you for it. thank you for the voice so glorify U.
i just feel so ... is it jealously or trying to feel the boredom. or both?jealously will not prevail , for its my turn next! whatever happens happens. it will be for my good, for my enjoyment and for Him to show what He can do ! i will not let this affect my life. even if i cant get things in dance or whatever relevant . therefore. i may lose many comrades. but in due season, it will be restored 7 times in quality and quantity. just writing to stand in faith with what i'm believing for.
Things can only go brighter and brighter. whatever the devil is trying to do, it will fail. for i know i'm forgiven. because He has been forsaken. In due season. we shall reap. i will reap!. everything is like good mans. just maybe tired. and just wanna know whatda do. God just told me indirectly mans ; rest. wouldn't be bothered bout whatever shits. God will handle it.
Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free
I am not my own
I've been carried by you my whole life
All my life
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
Gosh . things are going messy nowadays.
But Once i look away from My thoughts and let His thoughts take over.Bamm it is gonna be so good. but seriously its so awesome having a God who gave up His son for you mans.
Im just casting my cares upon Him man
1)9pts for O's
2)more bonded friendship/brotherhood/relationshipS.
3)Bball 2pts 7/10 3 pts 5/10.
4)dance popping damm nice waves . gliding. barrel mills. duckhammers. swipes. transition. forearm freeze
5)get more fit.
6)hang time.
7)get in depth with His word
and more.
my blog is dead now. cuz i damm lazy post stuff and all. yea. will still come by once in a while. dont bother tagging. cuz i lost like many links lol.
Yea You
Monday, October 5, 2009
Enough don't believe you don't succeed
And if you don't apply you wont achieve
You keep ya head up high
Feet down low follow your heart
Till you get to the door
Bells and wheels and wheels away
Never trust a soul im here to say
Stop dependin on and be yourself
And grab a hold and don't look left
So take a swing and heres your chance
You got nothing to lose so make a stance
The clock is tickin and time aint waitin with ya
All alone see that's what your facin
Yea you this is what i'm talkin bout
Don't waste your bullcrap time and
Start
Arise
Take up ya bed and walk
Try-Asher Brooke
Sunday, October 4, 2009
If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough
If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough
I will try for your love
I can hide up above
If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
Labels: a silhoutte of my feelings.
Alvin Whom Jesus Loves !
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Gosh. today i learnt a valuable lesson; nvr think good things are from self.
monday we had bball for pe. then i felt i improved like tremendously man. then today i play bball with some sengkang sec ppl. then like gosh. i didnt do much. haha. didnt dare ask for the ball and stuff. was just too quite. Gosh. an element of fear or just paranoid with some stuff i guess. But its alrights:) God will handle it man! like now im jumping from bboying to poppin. but still will bboy la. then like im like no choice but to give God handle man. cuz i confirm will fail and stuff. but yea. His favour and Grace is just so much lo.
quote from bryan " ya alrights man. theres nothing wrong with u now. everything is like just so good" then im like yea.. impossible, its too good to be true. but this is bullshit man. like if i expect something bad to happen it will. so why the heck i do? everything is going good cuz Jesus is in front. even if i kena bullshits along the way. its my food lo. i feed on these bullshits and will grow further. so all will be well:)
gosh. just found out that my blog aint bout talking bout whats happening day in day out. but its more like what i wanna proclaim in my life or just shit it out here so yea.
so much work to do nowadays. God i pray for productiviy man. let me do the work fast yet good and let me learnt my faults man. God my back is defined thanks to you man. so let my front be defined too:) . AMEN! laaaaaaaaaaaa cant decide what to type alr ahahah!
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I'm gonna break down these walls i built around myself. could ever mean half , as much, to me as u do now.
Alvin's life is awesome with Jesus man
Friday, September 25, 2009
gosh. why is this feeling against u coming up agian. is it really jealousy? but whats there to be jealous about. i aint need no one but Him!. got my hommies and cronnies. got Jesus. but y?
i wan to help ppl score. but is this the challenge that was prophesied that i would lose to the ppl i taught. i even could lose to ashely in maths. and physics. gosh. Jesus u gotta help me man. like wth is happening now man. all things may fail. i may not get l1r5 of 12 for prelims. i may not get the acceptance i wan from things. i may not get the looks. i may not get the body i desired. i may not get the bball skills i wan. i may not get my dance right. i may not get to sa. i may not get to do these or that. but just let me dwell in u. let me just keep drawing from u and putting u FIRST! thats all i will ever need. when u are first. i shall not be the last. when u are FIRST! all good things will just run after me! GOD i may be complacent. i may be bastard. but u just point me to u lord. cuz in this times nearing to o levels. i may neglect the ones that are close to me just that i can chiong. u help me help those u place the desires in my heart and u help me chiong super fast. let my prime form be ignited ; u chionging in place of me.
take the i me myself away lord. now its the time for me . now lord. let this bloddy jealousy of things which i dunno what is it, let this urge of wiining just for pride DIE! theres no bloody point to be jealous when u know God is already pouring gifts in u. so what if other ppl may get this or may get that!? God have already place something MUCH GREATER than that man! and win for pride for what?! whats there to win? u win alr then u shiok then suan the person? have u ever thought u might hurt the person more ? like he really thinks u are a nice guy that u would help him although u are so slack. and whats the joy man? how bout putting this intelect that God has given u and use it to SCORE ! for Jesus! bring His name to be lifted higher!
God even though i may not get the things i want. i know u have a better plan. even though i may not __________ or _________ u already done the work. U HAVE A BETTER PLAN! and u will just lead me from glory to glory! just shape me like the person u wan me to be. nvr let me disregard someone cuz im under emotional constrain or jealousy. kill the jealousy, bad emotions and PRIDE! im giving all things to u now lord. u have yr way man! two is better than one. instead of me fighting alone. u fight for me while i relaxs man. even this may sound bastard to some ppl. i dont care man?! cuz my God is just so great and mighty. He is just so awesome that He send His son for us man!!
God this is my prayer man. i give all to u now man. this is my prayer in this battle, where triumph is still on its way. My God is the God who provide:).
+ sry peeps for a long yet may seem saddening post, but its really what i feel now towards myself. u may think like wah alvin alr so _________ yet he still like that. like wt* man. so what? ppl do go through stuff like these man! and the way i go through. is to get my ass out of this stinky shit and go to God. go with the flow man!:) +
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I feel the fire tonight,
I hear, I hear the people cry.
I see the people now,
awesome day!:)~
Saturday, September 19, 2009
today was just spectacular man. received so much.
if u feel inferior. know that Jesus is superior and put the superior in the inferior. and the inferior will become superior!
Put everything in Jesus hands and it will multiply.
let Jesus be yr everything and everything will just be like WOAH!
1st phase: realise u are nothing. 2nd phase: let Jesus be yr everthing. 3rd phase: all good things will chase you down!
When we go through something. dont let our ability be the one carrying us out of it. let Jesus be the one carry us out of it.
serious just magnifying God is like superb alr. dont have to like worry for nuts. :) blog more next time. byes peeps:)
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
New Moon Trailer! this is a must watch movie. 20-11-09 . 9 days aft o's . hey peeps. lets all watch this K!:)
gosh today is really praise God. like seriously lo. last night i wanted to study physics. i wanted to study heat and waves and sound. then theres this thing saying. go study chapter 18 cuz maybe u dont know that well. then im like ok lo. anything. then i wanted to spend like 5mins on that chapter. then suddenly then 5 mins become 1hr. so i read the chapter like v v v detailly man.:) then like i flip through the other chapters to clear my doubts. so practically. i spent 1.5h studying. and then . i went to hear sermon and sleep!:)
then TODAY! PHYSICS! damm imba. chapter 18, dc circuits! came out like 50% of the paper la! like so many things about it CRAZY CAL MAN! so its like PRAISE GOD YA KNOW!:) really know how do. cuz of His grace. i just hopping to get a b3. then tmr physics p1 and amaths p1 i like damm lazy study. hahaha! grace grace i can do it cuz He can amen!
thx bros for following me to dental!. my teeth now super pain cuz of the wiring. gosh! He's more then enough lo. like seriously! alrights imma gonna watch my show now. bye bye:)
